Psychopath (BTS Suga)

To my beloved marshmallow;

Happy 25th birthday! 🎂

Though it has only been 2 years having you as my UB, but it feels like it has been decades since I fell head over heels for you. You're honestly the best thing that has ever happened in my life and I would never trade it for anything.

Loving you is never going to be considered a regret.

You brought happiness in my life, you were like the sun when I was down.

You were the crutches when my legs stop moving. You were like someone I could depend on even though you're miles and miles away.

Listening to your voice gives me a calming effect that it helps releases the stress I have due to upcoming exams.

You taught me useful lessons, you taught to be strong, to be brave and to stand for myself. You taught me that life wasn't all sunshine, rainbows, unicorns and flowers. You taught to be independent and to be confident of myself.

Without you, I would only live in unhappiness and depression. You brought a smile to my face without even having to try though you're so far away. You make my heart race every time.

Your smile is my favorite smile in the entire world, aside from your cute little eyes. You made butterflies erupt in my tummy whenever I see a new picture of you.

Having countless of mental breakdowns whenever I see you in my timeline is totally worth it. Though you may not have been my first love but I've never loved someone as much.

The story of how you became my bias would be cliche. Thinking back, you were someone who I didn't once bothered. You were just nothing, just as how I am to you. But now you're my everything. Everything changed in just a span of a few hours.

From day to night, I can talk about you for countless hours. From how I love the way you smile to I love how your hands are so pretty and to how your lips were so beautiful and plump. Unpopular opinion: you have the cutest butt ever.

I just hope I'll be able to see you someday.

For your 25th birthday, I would like to say that I hope 2017 will be a blessed year for you and Bangtan. Just like the passage I wrote for your 24th, I wish you good health and always remember to drink lots and lots of water. Stay hydrated!

Please don't pressure yourself or overwork. Do take as much rest as possible and I hope you gain some weight because honestly, it hurts me that you're so small and so fragile.

Gaining a bit of weight will not hurt, ARMYs will still love you no matter what.

I get very happy when I see you eat. I can honestly say that my favorite Eat Jin segment was where he featured you in it. I feel at ease whenever I see you eat.

Love yourself and don't be insecure anymore. You're beautiful just the way you are. Hates and threats are nothing, they're just something to make you stronger, to be braver. You're strong and you're going to overcome it.

Thank you for being born into this world and make sure to drink lots of seaweed soup and cake.

Once again,

Happy 25th birthday and happy 2nd anniversary my little cupcake.

I love you so so so much. 💖

-Shan 🌹