Moving ~ PHAN

Phil's POV

I never thought I'd be here again. I don't know which is worse though. Why would Dan.... do this? I know he loves me, he made that clear everyday. I know how much things he suffers with. I know about them and he was doing fine until I left. I didn't want to go, I didn't want to leave him. He insisted on it. I denied. But he said he'd be fine. How could I have let this happen?

I get up from the freezing bench outside the hospital. I make my way into his room. And once again, Dan lays there in a hospital bed. Only this time he looks lifeless. I walk over to him and caress his cheek, it's so soft and visibly stained by dry tears. His lips are dry, and I smile at that. I remember teasing him about them and us laughing. I remember buying him moisturizers just to see his reactions, which was the best. He'd laugh so hard and I couldn't help but love it. I remember after laughing I'd tell him how I could fix his lips and I'd kiss him making them somewhat softer. But I also remember loving the way the roughness felt on my own.

I play with the loose piece of wrapped bandage around his skull. He looks so dead, the only thing convincing me otherwise is the monitor beeping in synchronization with his long breathes.

I can't help but cry again.

"Dan," I whisper knowing he can't hear me.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have left. Please, come back. I love you, I need you. Dan, please please please come back," I beg trying to not lose all feeling and fall.

"I need you Dan, please."

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*(the next day)*

Phil's POV

"Phil. Philll," I wake up to Dan's mum.

When she sees me she offers a generous smile. I can see she's hurt though. She hands me a coffee. 

"Thank you." I say in a groggy voice sitting up. She sits beside me. I stare at Dan feeling empty and lost. His arms all bandaged. Needles and all these wires hooked up to him.

The doctors said that he actually hit a vein. They said it's a miracle he's not dead. But hitting a vein was bad enough, his skull fractured on the bathtub. Luckily his brain didn't get seriously affected. But he said Dan may not wake up for a while, the longest possible time maybe a year. If lucky, he'll wake up soon, hopefully by this week.

I felt tears escape my eyes again. I then feel ms. Howell stretch over and hug me. I hug her back because I don't know what else to do. She rubs my back soothingly, and tries to calm me. I hug her tighter, and when we pull away, her eyes are pouring out. We lean back in our seats.

"I love him so much. I really do. I just don't know what's wrong with him." She says sniffling.

"He's the best kid I could ask for. He's dealt with so much, I wish he didn't have to go through this." She looks at me now.

"Thank you Phil."

"For what?"

"For loving Dan as much as I do. He's been so much happier since he's met you. You've changed him. But I guess somethings never change," she says glancing up to her son.

I rest my head on her shoulder and she rests her head against mine. We sit like that waiting. Waiting for any sign that Dan will wake up.

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*(later that same day)*

I keep thinking about how nice Dan's mum was. She really understood. Unlike my mum.

I'm sitting in a chair I dragged up to Dan's bed holding his hand, thoughts running wild. I start to drift when I feel his hand shift. I jolt up watching. It moves gently again, fingers holding back mine.

"Dan?" I ask.

His head starts to move and his eyelids flutter.

"Dan!?" I say a bit of excitement and fear as to what's gonna happen next. His eyebrows go down in a furrow, puzzled. He licks his lips.

"Phil?" He manages to say and opens his eyes.

"Dan," I say relief and happiness flooding me.

"Phil? Phil!" A voice calls and I wake up and look at Dan, still unconscious in the bed. My hand is still in his, only he's not holding back. I look up to see a doctor changing his head and arm bandages and filling up the ivy. I look at Dan, and for a second, I see his eyelids flutter. 

I sign. I feel so lonely.

**

So.... sorry! I know I haven't uploaded in a while, once again schools being a bitch. Oh, also it's currently over 3:34am on a Monday morning and I haven't slept at all. Wow I'm screwed tomorrow. 

Anyway I hope this was good(?) 

I wanna start a new phanfiction eventually, but it's gonna be a straight one, yeah, as in Dan and Phil get girlfriends. I actually started planning that story way before this so that one will be longer and hopefully better than this. 

^^ Also I know you'll be a bit salty with me for it not being technically "Phan" but it will be a long story I can assure you. It will also be very detailed and planned especially with uploading. So yeah, that's something! Wellll.... bai 

~K