instant connection ; jake paul [editing]

one month.

it's been one month since jake and i broke up. i still live in the team 10 house with jake and the members. every time i see him he either ignores me or rolls his eyes. he actually flipped me off once when i tried to talk to him. so yeah, that's jake.

as for chance and i, i'm starting to develop feelings. i knew he had feelings from the start, but now they're just stronger. we hang out a lot.

as for nick and i, i forgave him but we aren't as good as friends as we were. but now i've learned not to tell him my secrets.

as for tessa and i, she is now happy and teases me about the break up. she also makes moves on jake and he treats her like his girlfriend. it's actually very annoying, because he knows that i still have feelings for him.

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right now, i'm just hanging in my room on my phone. i still watch jake's vlogs, and he seems pretty happy. so that's good that he has one last distraction. then there's a knock on the door.

"come in!" i yell to the door. i'm too lazy to physically move my body to the door. (relatable)

the door knob twists and my heart skips a beat thinking it was jake. but it's just chance.

"hey d, lunch is downstairs if you want some." chance says.

"alright thanks c." i respond with. we always call each other by the first letters of our names.

he gently starts to close the door but i stop him.

"wait i'll walk down with you." i say.

"ok."

we both head downstairs together to the kitchen, only to see tessa sitting on jake's lap, and his arms around her waist.

"oh shit. dawn i'm sorry i didn't know they were down here. we can go back up-"

"no it's fine." i sigh, slightly smiling. "i'm hungry." then i grab his hand and intertwine it with mine.

he looks confused for a second but goes along with it. then we continue walking.

i walk into the kitchen to see 3 boxes of pizza from domino's and 2 liters of root beer. and then of course jake and tessa.

i open up the box and put two slices on my plate, and poor half a cup of root beer.

i look in the corner of my eye and see jake staring at my hands intertwined with chance's.

"baby do you wanna eat up in the room?" i ask chance.

"uhh" he says, confused as to why i called him baby. then he realizes what i'm trying to do.

"sure babe." he says, with a wink.

"um you know i'm right here?" jake interrupts.

"oh i know." i say, then grab chance's hand and head for the stairs.

i hear jake sigh in the background. i ignore it and continue walking.

-

"so, baby huh?" chance says, wiggling his eyebrows.

my cheeks blush and i slightly smile. "hmm sure." i respond.

chance chuckles and then i get up from the couch and jump onto the bed.

"ok bye i'm tired." is all i say.

i close my eyes, but i'm not really asleep. then i hear footsteps on my wood floor and feel the bed dip next to me.

a pair of warm, muscular arms wrap around my tiny body and kiss my forehead.

"dawn, i don't know if you're asleep right now but i just wanted to let you know that you mean a lot to me. you probably already know that i like you, but i just wanted to say it. i wish i could make you mine but i don't know if you'd be okay with that. love you." he says, and then sighs.

i also love him, but i still have feelings for both jake and chance. i don't know what to do.

-

45 minutes later

i can't seem to fall asleep. i'm still wrapped up in chance's arms, and he's fast asleep.

i hear the door creak open, so i quickly shut my eyes.

"dawn, can we ta-" a voice belonging to jake says.

"oh." jake says again, jealousy obvious in his voice.

then i hear the door shut again.

i open my eyes again and sigh.

is what i'm doing right?