Curing Lilly

Chapter 6- Wallowing, Tayolr Swift songs and the Lorax.

I was left to my own devices,

many days fell away with nothing to show,

And the walls kept tumbling down,

in the city that we love,

grey clouds roll over the hills bringing darkness from above

if you close your eyes,

does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?

and if you closed your eyes,

does it almost feel like you've been here before?

****Pompeii- Bastille****

~*~

Lilly's POV:

Hallow, empty.

that's what I'm feeling right now. I woke up in my room and all the events of yesterday came flooding back to me. I've already had to use my anxiety pills and its barely morning. Today's the day we go back home and I've been staring at the ceiling for hours now. I remember crying in Knox's arms yet again and I feel so embarrassed.

I feel like that little girl I was years ago, vulnerable, scared of the world and not knowing what to believe.

I can't believe I was so stupid. Not only have i lost the one I love, I've also lost my best friend. I've never been so heart broken in my life.

Everything feels surreal. I wish this was a dream and Steph Winters wasn't actually Alec's girlfriend.

“Lilly, are you going to start packing?" mom asked softly as she came into my room.

“Uh.. sure."  I replied , my face void of any emotion making my mother sigh.

“Lilly Raine Jepsen, you have to promise me that this won't turn out like last time. I know your heartbroken but do not seep into depression. I ..  I ... don't know what I would do if any happen to you." her voice cracked at the end as she rushed forward to hug me. I knew she was being serious because she used my full name; middle name and all.

This broke me making tears trail down my face as she rocked me back and forth. I know it can't be like last time. It was so long ago; I mean being hospitalized at that age isn't something I'd  like to remember .

“Promise me Lilly." she stated again in a firmer voice."

“I...I....I'll try."

“That's all I ask." she said smiling slightly before leaving the room to no doubt cry more or pack her remaining things.

I wiped my face with the back of my hand and I turned on loud music to drown out my thoughts of Alec as I packed.

“lil are you trying to wake up the whole neighbourhood? damn turn the music down." Knox raised his voice as he entered my room. His hair was messed up and he was only wearing his boxers; which made me slightly blush because I always assumed he wore a shirt to bed.