I'm a Poet and I Know It

he makes me feel better
happier
maybe not so worthless

i could name a thousand emotions
pride and joy, fear and worry, love and lust
all for him

but i can't forget about the one before him
the one who made my head spin
the one who made my heart ache

whose eyes i could never look into
the flutter in my tummy and the infinite high
the incredible amount of trust

he promised me a forever that would end
i believed we could make it last
i gave my all and i thought i did too 

i still think about how i was first choice moved down to last
how special and whole he made me feel
but broken pieces can't always be put back together

i'm trying now to piece myself back
with stitches and bandaids  running along my scars
he makes me feel light, but how can i trust?

when the one who i first trusted promised me three words
i and love and you
they've changed to i and don't and care

the one i love now is so so good
i'm crazy to believe we even have a shot at a future
but i'm crazy enough to try