Kairos {joshler}

a/n: theres an attack in this so just be careful? i dont want to spoil it.

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Sister Wolf - Honeyblood

"You seem chipper today." Tyler teased as he slung an arm around Josh's shoulders.

"Probably because I actually got a full night's sleep for once." Josh smiled back, leaning into his boyfriend.

"Abby finally stopped having nightmares?" Tyler said eyes raised, and Josh nodded. "I'm surprised your mom hasn't figured it out yet."

Josh shrugged as they entered their homeroom class, blushing when Tyler pulled him down onto his lap at his desk. They were early enough that most people hadn't arrived yet, the teacher included. "Abby and I have this agreement that I deal with the monsters and nightmares so mom can rest, she comes to me when she's scared, so does Jordan." Josh fiddled with his hoodie strings, and Tyler frowned. Josh was always having to go above and beyond what most kids his age did.

"Can we hang out tonight?" Tyler said, pressing kisses into Josh's neck and hugging him closer. Josh flinched, face scrunching as Tyler brushed his tickle spot, causing Tyler to grin and keep kissing him there.

"Stop." Josh mumbled, trying not to squeal or laugh. "I-I can't." Tyler stopped tickling him, trying to supress his sadness. "I have work at the diner, I'm leaving last period early then working 'til 6, then mom wants a family dinner, sorry." Josh explained, avoiding eye contact guiltily.

Tyler reached up to turn his face around so that Tyler could kiss him. "It's okay."

A few more kids filed into the classroom, Tyler's basketball friends giving him nods of greetings, un-phased that Josh was perched in his lap still. Josh curled in on himself, embarrassed but Tyler rubbed soothing circles across his hips to calm him.

"Hey, Josh." Tyler said quietly, causing Josh to look at him again. "I know this timing sucks and it's totally okay if you don't want to say it back just yet but" he took a deep breath, eyes sharp and determined. "I love you, okay?"

Josh stared at Tyler for a second, his whole face in awe but before he could speak, the bell was ringing out and their teacher seemed to materialize out of nowhere, with an unimpressed expression, waiting for Josh to get to his own seat.

Josh hesitantly walked over to his seat, flopping down unhappily.

Tyler smiled at him, but it didn't reach his eyes.

As soon as homeroom finished Josh bolted out of the class, finding himself under the bleachers of the football field crying and fending off what felt like the becoming's of another panic attack. He was so stupid. In the distance he heard the late bell ring and remembered that he had a math test he had to get to, he wiped his eyes took a deep breath and ran to his class. He was only ten minutes late, but thankfully Tyler had helped him study for this one so he knew what he was actually doing. He ignored the way his hands shook almost violently, and suppressed thoughts of Tyler, focusing on the test in front of him.

Josh was trying to navigate the crowd of students so that he could get to a bathroom to wipe his nose when he heard the commotion. He continued to push thorough until he reached the clearing immediately realising over the shouting that two guys were fighting, throwing punches and practically spitting at one another. Josh noticed Brendon, and his friends Michael and Mark, pulling the two guys apart. That's when Josh realised Tyler was the one throwing the punches, the other guy looking pretty beaten.