Who Am I To Say

Today's the day. Today is the day.

It's the twenty-first today. The anniversary. So many years had passed since it happened. So many years.

It was the middle of summer, but there was a certain chill in the air today. I would have to dress warmly when I went out later today. 

I went through my drawers and put on my black dress. Every year I bought a new one, just to wear on this day. Kinda stupid if you think about it. I slipped on a pair of black leggings and put on a pair of matching black gloves. I covered myself in dark fabric until there was nothing left, all that was left exposed was my face.

I still had I bit of time before I had to leave, so I went to find my glasses. I hadn't been wearing them since summer vacation started. It was just something I did every year. For no particular reason really. They were really beaten up, but they were loved. I would have to update my prescription soon, they were starting to make my vision blur. I wiped the dirty lenses clean. Looking at the clock, it was 9 pm, I had to leave soon. 

Somehow I tracked down my phone, which happened to get stuck in a crack in the floorboards. How that's possible I don't know. Opening my text messages, I checked to see if there was anything new, but who was I kidding I knew there wouldn't be any. It didn't matter, I didn't have time to deal with that right now. I had more important things to do today than worry about Erin. As I stepped outside, I made sure to lock the door behind me before heading out. It was really cold and dark out, but that meant the graveyard would be empty.

As I walked down the pathway carrying the bouquet of flowers I arranged yesterday I had the strangest feeling. It was odd. Something felt wrong. Really really wrong. That feeling just increased as the familiar head stone came into view. This was the day that Viran was killed. This was the day that I lost my best friend. This was the day that changed my life forever.

I made it. I made it through another year, somehow. Pushing all thoughts of Erin out of my mind I focused on what was important in this moment. I need to grieve the loss of my friend. I needed to feel sad and start crying because I miss him so much. I needed to want to kill myself because the pain was unbearable. But something was off. I wasn't feeling the way I should have been feeling. Nothing was right today. Something was wrong. There was something wrong with my heart. It felt broken. 

The Kerrs would probably call soon to see if I was doing okay. Right on time, my phone started to buzz. I went to answer, but I could feel my heart start to pound when I saw the caller ID. The name read, Julie Walters. I pressed the small green button flashing on the screen. 

She only said two words before hanging up sent a cold chill down my spine. The bundle of blooms in my hand fell to the ground sending petals scattering in the breeze. The wind blew and the leaves on the tree swayed. All I could hear were those two words echoing in my mind.

"It's Erin."

This chapter is short but I think it makes things more dramatic! Don't worry I won't leave you hanging for long. The truth will be revealed in the next chapter, see ya there : D