Burning Brighter Than The Stars (Jalex)

~One Week Later~

I tried to ignore the fact that today is inevitable but it was no use. I woke up feeling terrible knowing what today holds and I couldn't bring myself to eat anything. Alex hasn't shown any signs of waking up or getting better so they're pulling the plug tonight. I know Tom's a wreck and so are Mabel and Charlotte and I guess I am too in a way. I've been trying to hold in my feelings and act strong but as soon as I close my bedroom door the floodgates open.

My mom is dropping me off at the hospital to stay with Alex while Tom goes home to be with the girls and take care of some stuff. They're taking him off life support at ten tonight so everyone is trying to get their final goodbyes in. I honestly don't know how to feel. I've only known Alex for about six months but in those six months I've discovered I love him. I love his smile and his eyes and his personality and everything about him. I just want him to be okay so we can see where our relationship goes and knowing that relationship will be cut short hurts. I know we can't keep him here if he's in pain but I don't know if i'm ready to let him go. I know I said I was but is anyone ever really ready to let anything go.

"Jack we have to get going" My mom yells upstairs. At least she understands or is trying to understand what i'm going through. I'm so lucky to have her support me through this whole thing.

"Coming" I reply and I head downstairs.

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Ten o'clock is slowly approaching so Tom should be back any second with the girls. My mom is also supposed to be back soon. I've been here since three and the pain just keeps getting worse. Knowing that Alex will be gone in about half an hour hurts like hell. I decide to say my final goodbye while i'm here here alone. I walk over to his bed and lay down next to ALex which takes up the extra room in the bed. I brush some hair out of his face and hold his hand.

"You know Alex since the first moment we met I knew something was different about you. You refused to let me in and get to know you at first but when you finally let me in I saw how broken you were and made it a personal goal of mine to fix you. After about a week of us being friends I wanted to be more so when you said yes to being my boyfriend I was the happiest I had ever been in my life. Just the thought of you makes me smile like crazy and your laugh is so contagious. I love how obsessed you are with space and I adore how much you love your family. Mabel and Charlotte love you so much and it's the cutest thing ever. Look I know you're a lover and not a fighter but I need you to fight this one time. Do it for Tom and the girls. Do it for me. I need you, you've become my anchor and I don't know where i'll end up if I lose you. I hate to say this but I started cutting because I couldn't deal with the pain of everyday life on my own and I hate myself for doing it especially after I asked you to stop cutting. If you pull through this I promise i'll never cut again and I'll love you as long as you want my love. Just please don't leave me. I need you. I-I love y-you." I say speaking from the heart and meaning every single word. 

I wipe away the tears that I let fall. I lean over and give Alex a soft kiss on his forehead before I place a quick but gentle kiss on his lips. I lay next to him for a few more minutes before I decide to get up and get some fresh air. I grab my jacket and phone before I start to head to the door.

"I love you too."

I quickly turn around to see if someone's there but all I see is Alex's lifeless body in the bed. 

"Hello?" I ask wondering if it was just a figment of my imagination.

"Jack." This time I see Alex's mouth move along to the words and this time I recognize Alex's voice. I quickly run over to his bed just in time to see his eyes open, god only knows how much I missed his eyes. I run out of the room to grab Dr. Charles and when we return to the room he's just as surprised as I was.

"Alex can you hear me?" He asks and Alex gives him a faint nod. You and clearly see he's in pain but i'm to excited to see him awake to really notice it.

"Are you in any sort of pain or feeling any discomfort?"

"Yes."

"Where does it hurt?"

"Everywhere." Alex's reply makes my smile and excitement turn to a frown and concern. It just reminds me how long and hard this recovery will be for him. 

"Jack i'm afraid I have to ask you to leave" Dr. Charles says and a nurse escorts me out of the room. I was slightly angry he made me leave but I didn't want to get in their way. The first thing I decide to do is call Tom and tell him the great news. My excitement makes my hands shake and I can barely hold my phone but I manage to dial his number anyways.

"Hello?"

"Tom he's awake and talking! The doctors and nurses are in there with him right now" I say and I can tell Tom's smiling. I'd love to see him smile again because I haven't seen it in so long. 

"Really?! Okay we'll be there in like five minute."

"Okay see you soon." With that I hang up the phone and take a seat in one of the chairs just outside of Alex's room. At the moment my smile is brighter than the sun and nothing could make me happier. After two months of visiting Alex while he was in a coma I finally got to hear his voice and see his eyes and hear the words "I love you" again. Finally I can say that everything will be okay and actually believe it.