Can't hate you || e.d

☼Dean's Journal☼

Your smile.. makes me fell like I get hit by a wave of anger and sadness. I clench my jaw without knowing it and feel like I could burn something down because the fear of never seeing that smile again is too big.. the fear of never hearing you laugh or never being the reason for you smile again makes me lose my mind.

Your childish smile.. your laugh that fills my ears and body with love...is something I've never experienced before. It's like this feeling captures my whole body and I can't do anything about it, no matter how much I don't want it and try to get rid of it. It just doesn't work.

It feels like we're the only human beings on this planet, when you smile and look into my eyes. It feels like it only belongs to me... and in that moment.. everyone disappears. Only we both are left.

Do you know what I like the most?

You never stop smiling. You're always positive. It looks so good on you and you're not even aware of how you make people feel.

Your innocent laugh.. that comes from the inside.. that 'ugly' laugh that you don't like is so pure and so beautiful that I want to listen to it all day. You don't mind if people are staring at you, you don't care about what they think or if you're too loud.. you enjoy it.. and I enjoy watching you, even if you don't notice it..

You're too busy with yourself.. you love yourself so much.. tell me how is it possible to not love you when even you love yourself so much?

The moments in which you almost cry of laughter.. and close your eyes because your stomach already hurts.. these are my favorite moments.. these are the moments that save my day...

☼☼☼

Y/n

I took a deep breath. "I invited Dean to dinner so we can get to know him." I explained and his smile disappeared slowly. He clenched his jaw and furrowed his eyebrows. "Y/n are you crazy?" he asked me with a deep voice. He was trying to be quiet because she was sleeping.. I rolled my eyes. He was going to make a scene again. I slowly lifted Sun's head up to put a pillow under it. I didn't want to wake her up yet because she was sleeping so peacefully. I grabbed Elijah's hand and pulled him with me. He was really angry so he freed himself as soon as we were far away enough.

"Ethan don't you dare to be angry at me!" I said totally serious with furrowed eyebrows. He looked shocked. „Angry at you-..?" He didn't continue his sentence although I was curious about what he wanted to say. He took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "I think we should get to know the boy who makes our daughter happy instead of pushing him away." I said totally serious but he laughed. "Who makes her happy? I think you wanted to say 'Who's a bad influence.'. And he shouldn't make her happy in first place." sometimes I really hated how stubborn he was. I sighed.

»No. He makes her happy, like really happy. You should've seen them earlier. And you need to get it in you head.. it is totally normal for her to have a boyfriend." I looked at him furiously. His jaw dropped. "He was here?" he almost screamed and I rolled my eyes. "Why won't you just give him a chance? It was the same with us!" I looked deep in his eyes so he would understand how serious I was.. "You were the asshole with a cold heart that still made me fall in love with him and it doesn't seem like he is an asshole." I added. He didn't say a word but I could see that he was a little angry because he knew I was right.