Angel

I'm happy. Can I say that? She fuckin' loves me. No one has ever told me that before and I mean no one. The only people that ever gave a damn about me were Rick, Carol, and the rest of them. We knew we had each other's backs and I would have stepped in front of a bullet for any of them, but this was different. Jessie...Angel...loves me. I know I never felt like this before.

She's asleep next to me, but my mind is going a mile a minute trying to process this. There's no way I'm going back to sleep. The stuff I was feeling about her I didn't know what to do with. I'm a loner, I prefer to be by myself, but with Angel, it's the exact opposite. I want her around me all the time. Even back when she was gone for those days scavenging, I missed her like crazy. I mean I miss Rick and Carol, but I didn't need to touch them like I do her. It's a different type of missing if that makes any sense at all.

Angel makes me feel whole. That's the only way I can describe it. It's like the heavyweight I felt on my shoulders for years has eased. She makes me laugh. No one makes me laugh. Maybe Lil' Asskicker did, but other than that, there was nuthin' worth laughing about. Now I got her.

Almost more importantly, I'm not alone anymore. That sounds stupid coming from a self-proclaimed loner, but it's true. When I was with the group, I could go out on my own when I needed to. I liked that and needed it, but I could always go back to them.

But now they are gone or at least I think they are. I searched for someone...anyone for days after the Saviors burned Alexandria, but I found nuthin'. I lost the only people that ever mattered to me until Angel burst into my life. Now I can't picture it without her. And best of all, she taught me was love is. I never wanted it, because everyone that should have loved me left me or hurt me. Except that ain't my Angel. She would never do that to me. I was betting my heart on that.

Yesterday ended up being a wasted day, but it was a great one. I should have checked the fence around the property for weak points, maybe set up some spikes to catch walkers, or brought in more water so we could get rid of that truck, but I did nothing except stay in bed having the best sex of my life. Sure the sex I had before really sucked, but this was like the Harley of sex and I had like scooter sex before. That's how different it was with Angel.

The sun's just coming up and I got a lot to do today. I've got good incentive to get everything done fast. There's a Harley with my name on that I need to ride. I'm doing that this afternoon no matter what.

I swing my legs off the bed and sit on the side before I get my naked ass up. Immediately from behind me I heard Angel mumbling, so I turn to look at her and see her sleepy eyes smiling at me.

"Where you going?" she asked. Usually, she pulls her hair back at night, but she was so tired from our sex-filled day, that she wore it loose. It flowed around her like a black silk. I have a weird obsession with her hair. It's fuckin' awesome.

"We got a lot of shit to do today since all we did yesterday was fuck."

"Are you complaining?"

That got a smile outta me. "Hell no, but we gotta make sure this place is as secure as we can make it. Maybe hide that driveway somehow. And we got that water truck to finish unloading. Then I'm taking the Harley out."

"Can I come?" she asked leaving little kisses on my back.

"Fuck, yeah," I told her. She belonged riding behind me. Carol and Maggie had both ridden with me on Merle's old chopper. This was different. It was my girl riding behind me – riding bitch. And yeah I wanted that. This falling in love shit was sure changing me.