My Love || Na Jaemin

He really cant see me, I'm nothing to him.

Like always.

I cant even help myself, I cant even talk to him.

I  a n n o y  him.

*-

Jaehyun called me for dinner.

I got out and headed straight to the dinning room.

I sat down, Looking for someone, And I noticed that My Love is not here.

" Where is he?" pointing to the chair across me, While looking at the other members.

"He's out" Taeyong said while munching his food down to his tummy.

"Something's weird." Mark said. "He's been smiling lately, Like a Happy Smile." He added.

"Maybe he's-" Donghyuck got interrupted by the door bell.

I was done eating, And sat back to the chair. I saw My Love with someone.

I thought She was just a friend of his,

But no,
It wasn't...

I looked down to their hands, they were something else more than friends.

"Sorry we're late. I had to fetch her." My Love said.
"Oh. Ri Hyun-ah, are you done eating?" He added.

Our first conversation , it's not even a conversation, it's just- it's basically nothing.

First time hearing my name from his words.

The very first sentence he said to me.

"U-uhm yeah s-sure." I was stuttering.

Like stuttering, for real.

"so she was the one who's making him smile." I thought.

My Love walked up to me, Took my arm, Giving my plate back to me.

Signalling me to stand up, I was confused.

But then.

He brought his girl to the chair to where I sat, and let her sit on my seat.

I thought he cant see me, But he can.

Maybe he just really don't like me.

*-

I put my plate in the sink and washed it.

I acted like nothing happened.

My heart was weak... when I saw  My Love and his Love holding hands. 

I kept my tears to my eyes.

Ran back to my room, Slamming the door once i got inside.

"Jaehyun-ah, finished already?" Yuta said curiously.

Jaehyun didn't answer him, Jaehyun didn't care about the question, he didn't care about yuta, He cared about his sister.

Jaehyun knocked on the door where Rihyun is.
He knew something was up, He knew his sister was hurt.

Right when he knocked, the door opened.

Revealing a swollen eyed Rihyun.

Rihyun suddenly hugged his brother, while Jaehyun was rubbing her back signalling her that it's okay.

*- Rihyun's room

As I slammed the door I quickly ran to my table and grabbed the blade.

I am a notebook, The blade is the pen.

My Love... is the pen.

I wrote "I'm happy when you're happy."

I kept hurting myself like it was a routine, I kept repeating it.

My Love.

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