solitude ? kihyun

f i f t e e n

he seemed completely honest and yuna knew he was telling the truth. she wanted to bad to not be mad at him. he wasn't at fault. 

it was true. it was something horrible to talk about and she couldn't picture him telling all these stuff since the first day they met. 

but it still angered her. the fact that he kept it hidden from her, just like kibum before him.

she crossed her arms on her chest and looked away. "fine. i am sorry." she said almost against her will. 

kihyun sighed. "there's nothing for you to be sorry about. this isn't your fault."

"that's not why i am apologizing for."

kihyun stared at her confused as he tilted his head softly. "then why are you apologizing for?"

she looked at his green eyes and for a second, she felt nothing but empathy. it was obvious kihyun have got it hard. his whole life was just a mess of sad events.

"for calling you a liar. you're clearly not." she shrugged, looking away. 

kihyun wanted to smile, but he couldn't. he just nodded. "gwenchana. i am not offended." he said sitting down next to her on the couch. 

they both remained silent for a couple of minutes until yuna remembered that he was kicking her out of the house a few minutes ago. 

"i am sorry too." he confessed out of the blue. yuna turned to look at him with confused eyes. 

"for saying hurtful things... i didn't mean it." 

"what part?" she asked staring at him. he looked at her with apologetic eyes and swallowed hard. "all of it." 

yuna sighed. it was clear he was referring to the part where he said he didn't like her and he wanted her gone. she turned to look at him. "well... do you still want me to go?" 

kihyun tensed at the question. it was obvious by the way he was holding the glass of water. he looked down and cleared his throat. 

"i do." he said avoiding her eyes. 

in that moment, yuna felt her chest hurting. it hurt the fact that he was kicking her out of this house and she couldn't understand why.

"why?" she quickly spoke her thoughts. 

it seemed kihyun was having a hard time to tell her the truth. in fact he didn't want to. he just wanted her to leave. "i just want to be alone."

yuna's eyes narrowed. "do i bother you?-

"no! of course not." he quickly said, shaking his head. "then why you want me gone?"

he sighed, closing his eyes. "it's nothing really... i just need some time alone. it has nothing to do with you." he looked for her eyes and suddenly she felt his warm touch. 

his fingers looking for her hand, holding her, squeezing softly. the unexpected touch brought her so much comfort in that moment. "i am sorry about what i said earlier... i really didn't mean it yuna." he emphasized. 

the single confesion made her feel better. in the middle of all that mess, even after finding out a horrible truth about kibum. just those words made her feel slightly better and suddenly she hated the idea of leaving. 

"i don't want to leave." she quickly admitted and this didn't please kihyun. he let go of her hand and stood violentely from the couch. 

"what do i have to do?"

"why do you want me gone?" she asked doing the same. 

"i've told you-

"i don't buy it! tell me the truth." she demanded. but kihyun couldn't be completely honest with her. he just couldn't. it was beyond his power.