I WISH THE TIME STOPPED || Mark Tuan Got7 X Reader

Mark POV

I read the letter that in my hand again and again not wanting to believe that the fact she was gone

She can't be gone right ? I looked up to see their were crying like crazy person . I still can't believe she was gone

She just left me like that . Why she donate her heart to me while she just can left me die . I didn't need her heart . I just need her now

"Hyung she gone now" Jaebum said as he crying

"No . She not gone yet" I said as I try to convince myself

"She not" I said as my tears start to rolling down again

It hurt when you know the person that you love gone . The fact that I didn't spend the times with her . I didn't give my full loves for her . I didn't help her when she need me the most

She must be pain all alone . She must been crying everyday by herself . It was that I didn't be there with her that make me feel like dying

The entire of this room become of sadness . The outside start to rain like their know that we were in sad

I looked at the window and back to them . I said to them that I want to went outside for awhile but their didn't give because their think I will do something crazy

"No . You can't hyung . I know you will try to suicide yourself" Jinyoung said while hold my wrist tight

"Yeah Jinyoung hyung right . You will do something crazy to yourself" Bambam said as he start to crying

"Pabo ! I just want to calm myself guys not want to kill myself even I want . I don't want to waste her heart that in my now . I just go out for awhile and come back . I promise" I said while grabbed my coat

"Alright . I trust you mark hyung" Jaebum said

I nodded and went outside . I went to the down floor and went outside from hospital . I walking at the garden hospital as hear only rains sound that fell

The rains fall onto me as hiding my tears . I saw a bench at there and sit down . I didn't care if my cloth wet

I want to hear her voice again calling my name . I want to feel her touch once again but I can't hear her sweet voice again and can't feel her warm near my body

I miss you Park Y/N

Two month ~

Two month had passed faster . My schedules had been super busy now . Our tour will start again

We practice , photoshoot , and do many things everyday . If you asked about Redpink their being doing well without Y/N

Their didn't want to added one member in their group so their just stay as three member in the group

I was in thought until someone voice calling me

"Hyung !" Jinyoung said

"What ?" I asked and turned to him

"I been calling you many times but you just ignore it . How could you hyung ?" He pouting

"Hahah this kid . Sorry I being in thought for awhile . Why you been calling me huh ?" I said as ruffled his hair

I missed ruffled y/n hair . Her hair was soft than this little kid

"Jaebum asked me to called you because we will practice again" He said

"Arasseo . Let go now" I said and ruffled his hair one more time and walk away from him

I can hear his shout my name but I ignore it . Hahah it was funny to tease Jinyoung