Nothing Matters But You// Logan x Jake

Logan and I stand there, both of us too afraid to speak first. I barely mentioned my deep adoration for him, but I mentioned it all the same. He still knows even though he doesn't know the full extent.

He doesn't know how he's filled every night with torment when my biggest weakness haunts me in my dreams. He doesn't know the pure heartache that I feel every single second and how I want nothing more than to spare Logan the embarrassment of having me as his brother. I look into his eyes and see what will never be mine, but I still want him to hold me. I want him to claim me, and I feel that even now as I stare at those eyes.

Fear is all that I can feel. It radiates through me. From my chest, to my fingertips, to my knees. I want to run away from Logan, but I know that I can't be a coward right now. He will tell me everything that he tells me in my painful dreams. At least now he understands and doesn't have to be sad anymore.

I clench my fist and feel my fingernails dig into the palm of my hand, trying to prepare myself for what he says next. But it's not what he says because he says nothing as he steps closer to me and my pulse somehow quickens. Reality fades away from me as my entire body seems to go numb. I close my eyes, anticipating pain. My knees feel weak beneath me, and Logan puts both of his hands on my hips. My eyes shoot open, and I look at him. He's staring at my lips instead of my wide eyes. "Logan, what are you doing?" I ask him, my voice erratic and quiet.

He steps even closer, and our noses are touching now. This isn't happening. One of Logan's hands slides up and caresses my cheek. He gives me this look that I don't really know how to explain.

Anger?

No, I don't think it's that exactly. It looks more like a look that I dream of giving to Logan.

Desire.

But not just desire. This is absolute predatory want. And I swallow nervously, having never seen my brother like this. I want to claw apart my insides because of how slow he's taking this.

Then he finally kisses me and everything seems to stop. My breathing stops, and I don't focus on anything anymore except for this feeling. Him finally pressed against me. Everything that I've wanted for so long. I let my eyelids finally shut, feeling more calm than I have ever felt.

I've kissed a few girls before but none have been like this. I didn't know it could feel like this. Kissing someone you're in love with is unlike anything I've ever experienced. It fills my chest with a sort of feeling that I can't explain. It's like he's finally filled the hole in my chest that has always been there. I thought that there was no remedy to my sadness. Maybe I was wrong.

It feels like I'm falling; all of the wind was knocked out of me.

I swear I'm falling. His grip tightens, and my eyes shoot open as he slams me against the bathroom door. He breaks away from me, and I realize that my feet are still on the ground. I still feel his hands on me. I look at his eyes and see his dilated pupils and that look in them. His hands creep up my shirt and touch my bare sides, and soon he is pulling my shirt over my head. I watch his eyes as he looks over my entire bare chest. He looks back into my eyes, and they're all I see before he lurches forward and bites at my neck. I let my eyelids close as my hands find his back. I grip tighter while our erections press together. He sucks and bites at the skin on my neck and even down to my collar bone.

He rubs his cock against mine, and I want him so bad. He stops biting me suddenly, only to whisper in my ear, "You just want me to fuck you right against this door, don't you?" He says it in such a low voice, his words laced with passion.

I whimper and nod. His hand trails down my cheek softly, contradicting his dominant attitude. "Too bad I'm not." I frown, already achingly hard. He is too from what I can feel against my leg. "But don't worry, I will fuck you." Logan goes back to kissing me. His warmth keeps me from freezing from having no shirt on. Logan is still fully dressed which I find unfair.

He breaks away from me once again, only to grab my hand and lead me the short distance into his room. Once we get in there, he pulls off his own shirt, and I can finally admire his shirtless form without having to sneak glances that make me feel disgusting. He pushes me onto the bed, and I lie back while he takes off the towel barely clinging to my waist.

I get this feeling in my chest every time I look him in the eyes. My whole body is hyper-sensitive to every one of his touches. It's a sort of awareness that I didn't know was possible.

He looks into my eyes and can probably see the disbelief them. It's still impossible for me to believe that this is happening, especially due to the light-headed feeling it causes. I watch Logan take off his pants, and he makes a show of doing it slowly to torture me. The ache in my crotch is becoming unbearable, and I move my hands toward my dick but Logan grabs my wrist tightly, pinning it against the bed.

"Don't you dare fucking touch yourself." He says in a harsh tone. He lets go of my wrist and climbs on top of me, letting our cocks rub together through our underwear. I put my hands on his sides and try to press him closer to me to get more contact.

He gets off of me for a second to reach into the drawer in his nightstand. I briefly see the bottle of lotion in his hands while he turned around. I watch him from behind as he gets some on his fingers, spreading it down the length of the first three. He pulls off my underwear with one hand and takes my dick into his mouth. My eyes become wide and I gasp at the action. This expression turns to a wince though when he inserts his first finger. I don't focus on the pain for long because Logan's mouth distracts me.

He adds another finger, and my entire body tenses up. The first one was not nearly as painful as this. He keeps his hand still, allowing the pain to subside before he starts moving again.

The feeling of Logan's fingers turns to a dull ache. "It's okay" I say, my voice shaking slightly.

He finishes prepping me, and I can see the long, red streaks on Logan's shoulders where my fingernails dug into him as he added three fingers. My heart starts beating almost as fast as when Logan first kissed me as he slides his fingers out of me. He leans down to whisper in my ear, "It's all right, baby."

I feel the head of his cock press against me. He's less rough about this, and it's clear that he doesn't want to hurt me right now. He looks me in the eyes, and I give him a small nod. He slowly pushes into me. The burning pain shoots through my entire body, and I almost want to cry. He's not very far in, but the slightest intrusion feels like no other pain I've felt before. Logan stills, noticing the pain on my face. I just want it to go away. I want to feel him inside of me without it feeling like this.

I try to focus on his hands as they run down my chest. Slowly, the pain begins to subside as my body gets used to it. I put my hands on his hips and begin to pull him further inside of me. The look on his face makes all the pain worth it. He presses into me all the way, and he lets out a deep moan at the contact. It's so difficult to comprehend just how deep inside my body he is. He starts with slow thrusts and I contort my body to let him have a better angle. He pulls my legs over his shoulders and begins thrusting harder into me. It's impossible to stop the whimpers and obscenities coming out of my mouth.

With every thrust the pain subsides a little more and it begins to feel so good, I reach my arms behind him and pull him impossibly further into me. His body pressed against mine feels like nothing I could have ever imagined. The contact is electric, and I never want to let go.

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Logan and I lie in his room, watching the room get darker as the sun goes down. My hand lightly rests on my chest, feeling the rhythmic heartbeat inside my chest. Logan lies next to me, arm wrapped around my shoulders while we both stare up at the ceiling. Neither of us speak, too content with the moment.

A/N: Thanks for being patient. I know it's been almost a y e a r but I really kind of just forgot about this story and I don't too much enjoy writing all that s e x shit. But thanks for reading. It really surprised me how many people enjoy this story ecks dee