My confusing Life! (Part 2(?))

I found a video but it won't show up. It's probably because of the title, but it's called "I almost killed myself before I could finish making this video"

I thought some of you could use this.
I've watched about 5 times now.

I'm trying to get better. Trying to understand what makes me like this and trying to tackle it head on.

I just gotta try to be happy and try to not have doubts I guess.

Or take an acid trip.

Idk don't look to me for advice.