Why did you leave? (Iwaoi)

I think I'm going to start publishing these weekly. I might publish a few days ahead or behind but bear with me.
Also in this chapter, I decided to put the song lyrics into certain points in the chapter. They will be in bold parentheses. Just cause

P.S. I may skip some lyrics and they might be out of order

~WARNING : THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS (physical, I guess) ABUSE AND GRAPHIC DETAILS~

~Oikawa's POV~

(I ponder of something great
My lungs will fill and then deflate
They fill with fire, exhale desire
I know it's dire my time today)

I'm not sure how long I stayed there in the corner of my room. I probably would have stayed there longer, if it wasn't for a knock on my bedroom door.

"Tooru, time for dinner"

I thought about just skipping dinner, but I also knew my "Mom" would just make my life miserable if I didn't.

Not that it isn't already.
I sighed.

"Coming"

I walked down the stairs to find the usual set up. My mom sitting at one end of the table, a plate waiting for me on the other. As I sit down quietly, my mom claps her hands to together in prayer. I quickly do the same, not wanting to suffer the consequences if I didn't.

After my mom finished her prayer, she started to eat. I just stared at the food in front of me, not feeling hungry.

"Tooru, eat" my mom growled.

I don't want to...

"I don't believe this! I put a perfectly good plate of food infront of you, but you refuse to eat it!"

Stop acting like you care...

Suddenly, I realize she is standing right in front of me. I watch as she raises her hand, and swings it toward my face, connecting with my cheek. It stings, but pain is something I'm pretty used to.

"If you don't eat all of it, I'll pull you out of school"

This makes me snap back to reality. I look back at my plate of food, and slowly reach for my fork. My mom watches as I slowly lift the fork to my mouth, and chew on the food. It tastes like ash.

Seeming satisfied, she sits back down in her seat across the table. I notice she is still watching me though, expecting me to eat all of it. My stomach churns at the thought of shoving all of it down my throat.

But I do awyway. I know worse things will happen if I don't. I manage to swallow everything, but I have a feeling it won't stay like that for long.

I put my dish in the sink, and walk up the stairs. As soon at I get to my room, I rush into the bathroom and slam the door. I sink to the floor and hug my knees to my chest.

Pretty soon I crawl over to the toilet, and vomit everything I just ate. I feel tears build up on the end of my lashes, until they spill over. I just lay there on the floor, curled up in a ball.

At some point I fall asleep, becuase I wake up on my bathroom floor. I groan and slowly stand up. At least it's a Saturday, so I don't have school. I start stripping my clothes and turn the water on for a shower. I let the hot water run down my back and ease my tense muscles. The pain doesnt fade though.

I shut of the water and pull some clothes on. I walk back into my room and fall on my bed. My mom left for her work early, not that that's anything new, so I'm left alone in the house.