Astray (See No Evil Book Two)

"Stop running in this house, Kanen!"

My son laughed, completely ignoring what I said, and ran outside with his friends to continue playing. After the doctor gave me the go, Kane put us on the first flight out here to L.A. He wanted us to just move into his place, and even though there was more than enough room, I wanted something new. So, with a lot of begging, he got me a new house that's closer to the beach. I feel like this is how I always dreamed I would be living. Of course, I thought I'd be someone's wife while living in this dream house.
I never pushed the subject again about where Kane and I stood. I figured after five years though, he would have figured it out. We had some situations where there were other women, and I never knew how to properly respond to them. Hell, how can I be upset about what a man is doing outside of this house when he and I aren't together? I know he's the father of my child and I have every right to speak up, but I just don't feel that way. There was even a point in time where I wanted to leave. I had no idea where I was going, but I wanted to get the hell out of here. I still feel like as if I'm in some sort of imprisonment. That I'm only around for on purpose and that purpose is to be a mother to our son. He can go out and do what he wants, but I'm required to stay here and play nanny. Kane has told me over and over that it isn't like that, but I'm not convinced. And I won't be until he puts a got damn ring on my finger.

Sometimes I wish Essence was still around, then maybe I'd feel less alone. We've talked once since I left, and she felt it best we keep it that way. Last I heard, her and Chavonne were running shit still for Jaivon. I thought she would've gotten out like I did, but she's too wrapped up being that man's sugar baby. One man came along and gave her everything she's ever asked for, and now she's blind to the bull shit. I'm not here to judge her though, if that's what she wants to do. I just wish we could've still stayed friends. Maybe she feels she's a constant reminder of my past and I'm a constant reminder of where she'll never be.

Seeing Kanen smile is the one thing that keeps me getting out of bed every morning. He's so smart and his teachers are thinking about putting him in a higher skill level. Kane said he needs to be around kids his age, so he can be socially stable, but I don't give a shit about that. I barely made it through school and wouldn't understand anything that's going on now-a-days anyway. But to have a son whose intelligence can bypass those of his age, is the best thing to me. So, when he asked me to have this big expensive party for his birthday with all these bad ass kids that I don't know, I couldn't say no. Yet, every time they run past me in the kitchen, I wish I had.

"You need help with anything?"

The sound of this bitch voice annoys me. Veronica is a mom of one of the kids here, so I expected her presence. However, she is also one of the hoes that I know for a fact is trying to fuck with Kane. Whether or not he indulges in her bull shit isn't my problem. What is my problem, is her walking up in my house like we're best friends or some shit.

"Na, I got it".

"Are you sure? I can go buy some more games for the kids".

"Nope, I got it. Just sit outside with your drink and stare at Kane like you've been doing since this shit started".

"Excuse me?"

I sighed and turned to face her. "Let's cut the bull shit, okay? You want him. Hell, every bitch out there wants him. That's the only reason you broads are even here".

She smirked. "Well ..."

"Well, get the fuck out my house before I beat ya ass".

"It's not my fault you can't keep your dog on a leash".

"And clearly you can't keep that pussy on one either. Get out".

She rolled her eyes and left out the side door. I heard her yelling for her son to come on, and how they were about to leave. Which was petty because her son and my son call themselves being best friends. The bitch didn't have to take her son, I just wanted her ass out of my kitchen.

"Everything alright in here?"

Kane set, hopefully, the last pan of meat that he grilled on the counter. He'd been growing his beard out, which is probably why all these bitches are drooling. And he had on the one shirt that hugs all his muscles with this "kiss the cook" apron on. If I had known any better, I'd say he was purposely drawing attention to himself.

"Everything is fine" I answered.

"So, why are you in here and not enjoying the party?"

"It's not my party to enjoy".

He sucked his teeth then scooped me up off my feet.

"Kane, put me down!"

He sat me down on the counter and stood between my legs. I rolled my eyes, already knowing where this was going.

"What do you want?", I asked.

"Why do I have to want something?"

"Because you do this shit all the time. Be all sweet, give me dick, then you ask me to do something. Either it's washing clothes, picking Kanen up from school because for some reason you can't. Feeding your hungry ass crew who don't do shit but track dirt in my house. Suck your dick longer than any woman would want to. So, tell me Kane, what is it now?"

He reached in his pocket and pulled out a small box. He opened it and showed me the most beautifully cut ring, I didn't know you could create something so perfect.

"Say yes", he said with a smile.

"But..."

"It's because you do all those things for me. And you do them without any complaints. You gave me my son and you provide us with the best home to raise him in. You've been my rock, so it's time to stop playing games and make this happen".

"What about those other women?"

"What other women?"

"Those bitches oogling over you".

"Fuck them hoes, I only love you"

"You love me?"

He took the ring out of the box and slid it on my finger.

"Yes, I love you".

"Did you do it daddy?", Kanen said, running in the kitchen. Kane picked him up and I couldn't help but smile at my two favorite boys.

"Yeah Papa, I did it".

"What did mommy say?"

"Well, mommy?"

I leaned in and kissed Kanen on the forehead.

"Mommy said yes, Papa".

"Yay!"

Kane tossed Kanen playfully in the air then set him down on the floor. He came closer to me and caressed the side of my face, where my bruise mark is. One of the times Jaivon beat me, not sure which one, left a really ugly mark on my face that never seemed to go away. I was self-conscious about it, but Kane would always kiss it and told me I'm beautiful. He always would rub it before kissing me. He placed a succulent kiss on my lips and nibbled on the bottom one a little.

"Can't wait till tonight, Mrs. Hill".

"And why is that?", I said trying to stifle a laugh.

"I'm going to tare that thing up".

"Tare what up, daddy?"

Kane and I bust out laughing. I jumped off the counter and decided maybe I will go enjoy this party. And show off my ring to all these bird bitches.