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I wiped the sweat from my forehead and quickly tried to catch my breath.

I made sure Clarence was stable before sitting back down. He'd had a seizure at least Three times today, the doctors had just walked out as I tried to catch some rest.

My phone Dinged immediately ending my momentary peace.
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Nancy-I know your busy but you need to get back to Maddox, it's important.
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I sighed whilst looking a message before closing it.

My job has honestly slipped my mind because of everything that's happened these last few days.

I walked over to Clarence as softly kissed his pale lips before gathering my things and walking out of his room.

He'd definitely not want me to lose myself because of him. As much as I was worried and hurt, I had to face my problems—not run.

The entire drive back to my house I did my best to just clear my mind. I didn't want to think, the more I thought the more I'd get worried.

When I got there I quickly did my hygiene and dressed accordingly for work. As fast as I was in the house I was out of it.

I followed the directions to the new facility which was surprisingly closer to my house.

I arrived in no time, took a deep breath to clear my mind and proceeded to walk in.

The check in woman greeted me with a smile calming some of my nerves.

I signed and proceeded into the elevator and towards the mental institution.

It honestly felt as if everyone was staring at me, like I had grown two heads and just wasn't aware of it.

Their whispers and judging looks made me feel like I was some circus act.

It all could've been in my head though, I hope.

I walked to the desk area and found a free one before sitting down my brief case and filing my documents.

I felt a light tap on my shoulder causing me to jump.

"WH-oh!" I sighed and covered my chest, Nancy stood with wide eyes.

"You ok?" She asked.

"Yea you just um-scared me." I shook my head.

"I wasn't talking about that," she said softly.

I was slight confused for a second before I finally caught on to what she was saying.

"Yea, I'm.....ok." I nodded and forced a smile.

She nodded, obviously she didn't buy it but she could tell I wasn't in the mood to talk.

She returned me with a sympathetic smile and walked on her way.

I turned around and went back to what I was doing before receiving another tap on my shoulder.

I turned around with a sigh before immediately stiffing.

"Mr-Maddox." I began to stutter as images of how I acted the last time I saw him flashed through my head.

The fact that his face didn't particularly look pleased didn't do much to help my case.

"To my office please." He nodded his head down the hall.

I gathered my papers I'd just started to file and put them back in my brief case before following him down towards his office.

I stepped in behind him before he slowly closed the door and took a seat behind his desk.

I sat down slowly, cringing and the thick tension in the air.

"Doctor, I've been trying to get in touch with you for two days, I don't know what you've been up to. But that's unacceptable, your one of our top doctors and going M.I.A for two days hurts the facility." He started.

I stayed silent and nodded my head,to be honest that was all I could do. He was right, I had completely secluded myself from the world these last two days.

"Then there the other issue, your patients outburst. I'm beginning to lose count on the amount of times he's assaulted staff, and then amount of times you've said he'd change." He ranted.

"He has changed." I finally spoke up.

"Oh really? Well that brings me to my next point—the most interesting of them all might I add." He said with a hard face, "In order to call your patient down...you kissed him." He said causing my heart to instantly drop.

"I can expla-"

"There's no need," he cut me off, "The fact he didn't completely throw you off let's me know that he's used to it, You two have something going on. Which directly violates our top rule here. No Intimate and or Sexual relations with patients." He stood up.

My heart was beating a thousand miles per hour now. I'd know I'd get in trouble, but the road he was headed down made it seem like even more than that would happen.

"Dr.Hoseok do you know how it looks, that one of my top doctors is having a love affair with one of my most dangerous patients!" He snapped.

Before I could even speak he cut me off again.

"I'm putting you on leave until further notice—unpaid." He said sternly.

My eyes immediately got wide as I stood up, "What! Woah woah listen Mr.Maddox I know what I did may seem—controversial, but I think this is a little harsh!" I shook my head.

"Harsh? Doctor for what you did I should fire you, if anything I'm being generous."

My blood began to boil, once again I found myself feeling this unfamiliar anger.

I physically had to bite my tongue before I said something to make the situation even worse.

He should be thanking me, if I hadn't done what I did—if I hadn't kissed Clarence then he wouldn't have stopped, then they'd be forced to kill him and how'd that look for this company.

Better yet he should be apologizing to me, he took what I did with Clarence as an opportunity to shoot him. Whether he ordered it or not, it was his men. If he's gonna blame me for everything Clarence has done then I could return the favor and do the exact same to him.

I gave him one last glare before grabbing my brief case and leaving his office.

The entire walk out of the facility I wore a scowl. Yes what I was doing with Clarence was wrong, I knew that, but I couldn't control what I was feeling.

Maybe that made me a bad doctor, maybe it made me a bad person, I don't know.

But why—why was it so bad that I was happy, Why was it so bad he made me happy?

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