Irresistible | jjk

*02.01 AM*

The nightmare. I am having the nightmare once again and I see the exact same thing everytime. My brother hanging there, dead. It feels so real whenever I see him. It's like he's really there infront of my eyes. Everytime, I see myself running towards him and trying to shake the living hell out of him, trying to wake him up. I was an innocent kid who didn't come to think about what may had been the situation.

Everytime, I scream wake up, hoping he'd open his eyes and smile again. I know it's all in my head, but I can't help hoping. Hoping he might come back. Hoping my parents will realize they aren't actually there for their daughter. I keep hoping that my nightmares will stop, but I guess they are there to haunt you. 

And it's working. I feel haunted. Chased, even. I feel like my brother blames me for not being there, and the guilt I feel, is chasing me.

It won't stop and it will show me no mercy. 

Maybe I'm just a cursed person. 

Maybe I'm not supposed to be happy and feel loved. Maybe people are supposed to pity me. Or perhaps I'm just not seeing the whole picture. Either way, everything is bound to go wrong with me and my parents know it. It's probably why they are going on all these buisness trips. They blame me for Sehun's death. 

They use the trips as an excuse to not having to face me and think about him.

"Y/N" 

"Y/N?" 

I was woken up by Jungkook. It was dark and I didn't see him. I could feel him, though. We were laying really close to one another and I could feel his breath on my neck. 

"You were crying, what happened???" 

I sniffle a few times and touch my eyelids just to feel the warm liquid of my tears. I bury my face in his chest, trying to not have a mental breakdown as always. 

"Hey, you can talk to me, you know? I'm really worried about you." He says tucking my hair behind one of my ears as I take a deep breath.

"I-I-I know I-I just-" I stutter and I sniffle once more. " You don't have to tell me, I just want you to know that I'm here. Even though we aren't really close, I would listen to you and I would comfort you. Just say it and I'll be here as fast as lightning. I promise. You don't have to go through the pain alone anymore, you have me," He pauses and kisses the temple of my forehead lightly. " You're an amazing, strong and outgoing girl and I would want nothing more than to get to know you better. Don't let your demons drag you down"

"I-I'm just so scared, Jungkook." I say as I break into more tears that I've been holding back and I stick my hand in his hoodie pocket to feel the comforting warmth of him. "I know," He strokes my hair making me sleepy again.

 "It's going to be okay, Y/N. I'll make sure of that." He says as he notices that I'm asleep again. He smiles, happy to know that he can comfort me the way I need him to. He caresses my face one more time before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep. Holding onto me for dear life.

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A/N: This chapter is really short (600 words), but I just wanted to update real quick before going to sleep. Also, I'm not depressed or anything lmao. It may seem that way because of how I write, but I reassure you that I'm not ♡♡ 

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