Project

3.2: The Messages

"This conversation is over."

"Sorry, see ya."

"Just talk to me when you ain't being a bully to yourself." Will read, and then said to the gentlemen, "This is where things get a bit messy, are you sure you want me to carry on?" Although it was Will who wished he could stop then. Questioner gave a nod, but then quickly interrupted, saying, "What was with the last message you sent? Seems a bit rude. If you knew this was a plea for help, then why didn't you respond better?"

"Because I was heated enough as it is. I'm no good with sympathy, and I sure as hell can't solve every riddle they throw at me! So what else could I say? They were breaking, so I thought that I could try to put a stop to it by telling them to stop." Questioner still gave him a look, which Will easily interpreted as, I could've said something better, and was tempted to tell Questioner to "Fuck off," but resisted it.

He then moved onto the dreaded time that everyone was waiting for, the point in history which can no longer be changed. Once it's out there, it's out there for good. No one can hide from it, no one can unsee it.

So, are you ready? Because this is where Project shows their true side... Where they tell the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

"Look I know that you'll probably skip through these messages because I'm technically beating myself up, but you know what? FUCK IT. I know that you're probably one of the people who doesn't like to ask questions, meaning all of this will be invalid for you, but knowing this it makes it easier to say this shit. so either skip all this and continue the denial, or read and then ruin my prime directive of making sure you guys don't get concerned by me.

"Also this is exactly why I never. Open. up." 抖阴社区r was still shocked by all these messages, even though he had already read them before during the journey. Will understood this, as even he was still freaked out by them. He carried on reading.

"There's always a negative response. Maybe I'm not able to phrase things right in my messages, maybe my mind is just like 'FUCK you if you're trying to find an easy way to solve this shit'. Hell if I know, because no matter what, I'm gonna seem like a stupid. FUCKING. MYSTERY.

"And that's the most ironic thing! I know someone whom you also kind of know, called M. . I hate them with a passion, because they are the exact epitome (example) of me.

"Anyways.

"No matter what I do, thanks to M. , thanks to my fucking waste of a subconscious, any time I will try and open up, it will be brought with a negative or basically useless response." They then went on to list people -one by one- and seemingly say with confidence a predicted reaction that they might have.

"For example! Let's start with you! When I said everything there, I was trying to give a clue as to why I'm the crazy weird psycho that I am, and yet what happens? You go with impression I had a feeling you'd go with!! The Denial. In other words, refusing to acknowledge the issue, and instead wait it out until they sort themselves out. I call it 'The Good Bad Therapist'. But don't take it harshly! It's not the worst I've seen. People resort using violence, that's happened before! Boy was that a shock! Anyway, next person!

"Thomas, oh Thomas Tom Tommy gun, he's The Logical One, which in my case is no help whatsoever. He would try to solve things through critical thinking, through trying to understand the situation, and then process the solutions from there. BUT HERE'S THE PROBLEM: When you're someone who's cryptic and confusing and also has lost some connection with reality, it instead brings the problem to an even higher state! This makes the person worry more, increasing the problem more! And the cycle continues!!!!!!! Who next?

"Oh! How about Spencer? He's unique in his response that's for sure.

"He's The Competitor, AND Consolidator. He'll start by trying to make himself seem worse off than you, which will lead to a Battle of the Depressing! This can wage on for hours!! Days! Who knows, HUH?! Anyway, if he loses, he'll consolidate you, but in a way which he still tries to say that he's worse than you. Problem? Well, this makes someone like me (whose PRIME FUCKING DIRECTIVE is to help) feel bad, and thus forget their problems, and let's them build up until this point I'm at right now! And funnily enough, I haven't talked to him yet! It's HILARIOUS! I'M LAUGHING RIGHT NOW AT THE IRONY THAT IS PRESENT!!!!!" They had truly lost it. That was the only thought going through everyone's head at that time.

"Next person! Danielle!

"The Clueless Consolidator. Oh how she wishes to help! Yet doesn't know how :(. It's a sad tale, as she would love to help out those who are sad, but has such an okay+ life, that she doesn't fully know the issues comprised within the person. So all she can do is say how she's there for them! GREAT. Shall we move on? Why yes we shall!" It was as if Project had taken the stage by force, and was no longer backing down.

"How about Wynter? This is gonna make me cry. FUCKING FANTASTIC HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAGHA. I CAN'T WAIT! Sorry for the loss of my now shattered visage of a cool dude.

"Anyway! Wynter is the more Empathetic. Meaning she'll try to fit in the person's shoes. She wants to make people happy, and is very um, how do you say it? Whatever the word is for looking at the big picture. The only problem is: that won't always work for someone who has trouble even understanding THEIR actions! So yeah, it CAN help, but won't ALWAYS help, like a temporary drug. And if you ever get attached to someone like her and then they go off yo achieve their dreams, you'll enter withdrawal symptoms!!! FANTASTIC!!!

"Ian J.: The Deceiver

"David O.: The Competitor

"And on and on it goes!!!

"Every possible outcome I can see from me talking to you about me ends in one of these ways! And their outcomes aren't that great either! Usually ending in an untimely death!!!! Whose?! I'll never tell!

"But it can also end with you guys withholding information about yourselves from me, as to make sure I don't turn back to this guy who you're looking at right now, AKA Pessimist." That word then suddenly sounded familiar to Questioner... Pessimist... Why does it feel as though he can make a connection?

"This however ruins my goal to make you all happy, as I can't help what you don't say! So then I'll feel horrible for making you feel bad about me, and thus the cycle continues until I can't take the pressure!! GREAT!!!!!!!

"PLUS! And this is the best part! You'll probably disregard it all anyways, and think of it as a 'man-period' or whatever you all call it nowadays. Yet you have no idea why I feel as though it will just be easier to beat myself up instead of trying to solve it at this point!!!! Who knows?! Maybe you'll show Thomas and Danielle! Maybe you'll send this to Wynter and Spencer Maybe you'll do that to get their input! I'm not a fucking fortune teller. so I ain't got a fucking clue. Both options are probable, and both have good and bad consequences!"

And then, they began to calm down, and instead of being mad, they were more... sad.

"Look. This is why I stay quiet, because one break could mean the end of a friendship. It could mean the end of my goal, my mission. And if that happens, then what do I do? Anyways, if you're gonna stick to that rule of not talking until I stop bullying myself, then I'll see you wherever you go after death, because no matter what, it's the best I can do to make myself believe that the best thing to do is to help others, even if they punch you, even if they bully you, if you're helping them, then you're helping them I guess. Have a good night/day."

They all took a breath, wondering what the hell they just witnessed (some more than once at this point). Questioner didn't know when to begin, 抖阴社区r's pen fell from his limp hand, and Will bowed his head, trying to supress his emotions. I've got to be ready to answer. I have to be sure, I can't have any doubts at this point. This is where Project's life has taken me, and so I'll grant their wish, Will thought, waiting for the questions to slowly arise.

Soon enough, the first question came up. But it wasn't one specifically directed to Will, but more to Questioner himself: "Why did I sign up for this? I knew this was gonna be tough to find answers, but I didn't think emotionally..." Questioner just sat there, staring wide-eyed at those messages. He was confused and concerned, intrigued yet afraid, and had a desire for answers yet a strong warning to tread carefully. Is this what Will thought when he first read the messages? Questioner pondered, realising how strong the effect would be on a close friend of Project's, one that taught them how to be observant, and see this observance fall to the wrong side of the scales. 抖阴社区r was still processing it all, trying to focus more on the Mystery at hand than let his emotions get the better of himself. He picked up his pen again, his hands slightly trembling, and was readying himself for the questioning.

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