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"Does it hurts?"

"What?"

"Being rejected? by someone who supposed to love you for eternity?" Nari plays with the strand of her coat.

You were preoccupied with making breakfast and the thought of meeting him again. You surely don't want Nari to ask more about him.

Taking a deep breath, you face Nari while giving her the last piece of hot bacon from the stove. "It does, I won't lie to you. It really does."

"—What can I do for you to take away the pain?" She mumbles looking at her plate.

"Nothing, Nari it's okay. Don't think about me okay? It hurts so bad, yes. And I still don't know how to recover from it. The more I grew up the more I can seem to fully understand why he rejected me. But it is okay now. I can distract the pain, by doing works and taking care of you. It gave me more strength watching you smile and laughs every day."

You hope to see the smile formed on her face by pouring your heart out like this. Instead, she's on the verge of crying. Baffled. You instantly wipe her tears and hugs her.

She cries more loudly this time. "Why are you crying?"

"I-I'm sorry if I-I often cause you trouble a-and eat your last c-cup of cherry y-yogurt." She stutters, and hug you back.

"No, no no. It's okay sweetie. Don't cry. School starts at 7 and you don't want to end up looking like a mad person with that puffy eyes don't you?"

Nari just nods her head, she rubs her eyes lazily and starts to sniff her runny nose.

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I drop her off and then go back to our apartment, I tried to make brownies but failed miserably. Smoke puffing out from our kitchen.

I cough multiple times by now. Still clothed in my pajamas and layered with an apron. I choose to sit down on my sofa watching tv and eating doritos while regretting on why I spent more than an hour to bake a failed ugly brownie.

Then someone rings the door. Whoever that is, they surely so impatient. I groan and half-heartedly get up from my coach.

I thought it was the mailman, or namjoon being namjoon decided to borrow another spatula since he broke his for the thousands time this couple of month.

Well, I am definitely fell asleep on my couch and dozed off in a dream right now if what I am seeing is right.

Kim Taehyung, clad in his blue navy sweater stand in my front door.

"Hi." Then he says, unconsciously  I slam the door on his face. I turn around and rest my head on the door, still shocked on why is he here.

He knocks this time. Causing me to jump out and freak out. "I know you're in there. Sorry for the surprise visit but can we talk? I have something to talk to you."

My head dizzy, and when he said the last part I freaked out even more. What is he going to say? Is he going to reject me again? Or tell me not to tell Nari about us and pretend as if I don't know who he is? Then it's too late, I'm in deep trouble.

"Ah I get it now, you probably don't want to talk to me right?

"But please listen..."