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"No! Y/n, stop that it's not you, it's just-"

"Am I a bad person? Did I not make you feel appreciated?" By that, Baekhyun's hands were up in his hair fisting it frustratedly as he didn't get to express his feelings because of you.

"No! I love you! Gosh, I started liking you so soon that I got scared, okay? I didn't know what to do with myself and my feelings were so overwhelming that I needed to step back." Your eyes were wide as you took in the very upset, heavy breathing Baekhyun. His dark orbs were searching for something in yours. Something that would tell him that you understood, that you accepted his feelings. But there was nothing. His heart was slowly falling deeper into his stomach.

The truth was that the worlds he had just spoken so loudly weren't sinking in yet.

He said he loved you. But what if that you had just imagined that, because nonetheless your stubborn self, you did too, so much that you heard these kinds of things.

Your head shook denyingly while you walked further back, stopping suddenly when your back hit against the rockhard wall, while Baekhyun came closer once again, staring at you with pleading eyes.

"And I know I don't deserve you, and that I am just a fool, and I'm sorry for loving you after only a month." You noticed how his hands trembled as he spoke, his voice breaking in the middle of his sentence.

"Don't say those kinds of things, if you don't mean them. Don't say you love me if it's not true." The disbelief on his face solely broke your heart but at this point, you didn't know what to feel anymore. The person who had hurt you the most was telling you how much he loved you, but that didn't quite make sense in your sense at the moment, with your feelings all over the place.

"How can you say that?" His voice was a mere whisper as he stopped right in front of you, your hands flew to his chest to try to push him slightly away but he didn't budge, instead, his gaze remained still and hurtful.

"I don't understand!" You yelled back, not being able to contain yourself, you hadn't meant to scream but if you hadn't you'd feel drowned by your own emotions. Before you knew it, Baekhyun's hands were already gripping on your shoulders helplessly trying to make you understand that it was you he loved, that whatever you were doubting, it was just in your head. You were lovable, you were beautiful, you were amazing and you were the only one he wanted.

"I love you," He repeated, but this time his voice was steady and confident and the sound was making the butterflies bloom in your belly, the sound of the rain was long ago faded by the heartbeat resounding in your ears, but when you shook your head once again, with tears streaming down your face as you tried to push him away, for no specific reason. You were scared too, and confused, you didn't know why you were pushing him away instead of embracing him.

He felt all of the control on his emotions slip through the cracks of his hands like sand, and without being able to think things through, the hands of his on your shoulders had already pushed you back onto the wall and his lip crashed with a gasp on yours. Your hands trembled with shock against his chest, but the shock wasn't your strongest feeling at the moment in fact you felt the drowsiness get to you as his hot lips were warming up your cold insides and a big part of you was fighting for you to just give in, close your eyes and forget your name in his embrace. 

Byun Baekhyun was kissing you, an angel, an angel was kissing you.

After what felt like the shortest seconds of your life, his lips were already gone with a soft sound of lip locking and you felt a wave of cold wash over you, suddenly missing the warmth and comfort of his lips on yours. His face stayed close as he looked at you from under his lashes that were fluttering the wet skin of your cheekbones. Quick breaths left your lips and you found yourself calming down.

"Do you understand now?" Baekhyun murmured, breaking the silence, not finding any words to say back to him all you were able to do was circle quietly your arms around his neck, burying your face into his shoulder and take in the faded scent of his aftershave. You felt how his whole body relaxed and from his lips heaved a relieved sigh, a hand snaking around your waist while the other tangled into your hair, pulling you closer. His lips met your cheek before he buried his face into your hair.

"I'm sorry." You finally said, but Baekhyun hushed you with a shake of his head as he leaned a bit away, only to look at you. A warm hand spread on your jaw as his eyes for what seemed the hundredth time that day took in every detail of your face, not missing a single spot.

"I'm the one at fault, I'm sorry." With a sigh, you nodded, "But, Baekhyun." His eyebrows shot up ever so slightly, giving you his attention.

"Don't apologize for loving me, though." You wished and the shyness was making you advert your eyes down to your feet, but just like the first time, Baekhyun surprised you with his lips, tilting your head further up with a deep kiss. His soft lips felt like velvet against yours despite the pouring rain, and his fingertips were enough to spread trails of hot fire as they roamed your cold body. Baekhyun's teeth dug into his lip once you parted away, keeping himself from leaning again, instead he pressed his face into your chest again, hugging you tightly as he sighed a quiet 'okay.'

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hm, I don't know you guys, I hope this isn't weird, cringey or rushed of some sort. This is very cliche AND longer than I had planned, I did my best so I really hope this is good, I'm not so used to long imagines like these ugh bare with me. Much love, P 💖✨