Deeper [Book Two]

"Sometimes our love is clear blue waters. But sometimes those waves come crashing down on me. And I can't breathe. I need you to rescue me"

"Finally I have found a love so deep it rivals the ocean but my fear of drowning kept me ashore."

The last 20 minutes ticked by painfully slow for Erik but seemingly for Kehzia it flew by all too quickly. The two sat at opposite ends of the room, eyes fixed on each other. No words were exchanged. Everytime he tried to explain, a huge lump would form in his throat. He felt insecure in his reasons so he felt too ashamed. Not wanting to cause anymore hurt, he sat back silently. Refusing to leave her place without them talking. He knew eventually he would have to find the words. Judging from her eyes, he had to do it quickly because he could sense her impatience with him. It reminded him of when they first met. In those moments where he could see she was too deep in her own head, how she tried not to notice him when all he really wanted was her attention.

Kehzia sat with her legs so close to her chest it hurt but not as much as staring into his eyes did though. She would unconsciously bite her bottom lip while memories of Erik flooded her brain. So desperately did she want to hold onto the pain he caused but her mind was playing awful tricks on her. She cursed herself for wanting to walk the small space between them and sink into his warmth. Although her mind and her body reacted to him sitting so close to her, her heart knew better.

She got up abruptly, walking past Erik, he caught a familiar scent. The corners of his lips lifted slightly as the thoughts invaded his mind. Disappearing around the corner, she walked into her room and immediately headed for her bathroom. Locking the door, she filled the basin with lukewarm water and cleaned between her thighs. Throwing her now damp underwear in the hamper, she gripped the counter to keep her stable. This wasn't what she wanted. It was her body but not her. The mere presence of him had her craving him, wanting to feel what she had missed so much but this was more than just sex. She craved the security his arms always gave her, the assurance his voice carried and the joy his smile would ignite. Her mind yearned to feel his love again but her heart was guarded. She pleaded with herself over these past two years to not think of him, to block him out. As much as it worked on most days, she had her moments where he was too present in her mind and now he sat in her living room like he had never been gone.