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I cant sit home alone all day everyday staring at my wall thinking about how it would be if my life was different. I cant sit here thinking about how it would be if he was still here. Why did he leave.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at my door. "Come in" I say as my older brother was already halfway in my room. "Jake what do you want". He looks at me "Are you okay" I look at him "You've asked me that 2 years in a row, I answer the same everytime, i'm fine."

He sits down on the bean bag in front of me. "I'm worried about you Paris, you're my little sister, and seeing you so empty hurts me". That word empty that's exactly how I feel. If I could use one word to describe me, it would definitely be empty.

"Jake, I know you care and I love you for that, but I just need time." I say as I get up to get food. "I understand you need time but do you really wanna spend your time here, you've said it yourself before, this house makes you feel dull."

He says getting up and following me. "Jake I don't want to live with you and your friends, I don't know them and they don't know me. Im 21 I can make my own decisions." I roll my eyes. "Yeah I get that your old enough but don't you think you need fun in your life ever since Nathan."

I turn around and look at him. "Dont." I say. He sighs "But i'm right you need to have some fucking fun for once" Hes clearly getting frustrated. "OK OK, fine but if anything happens, if i don't like it there, i'm moving back here." I say giving in.

He smiles, "you do know i'm doing this for you and your happiness, right?" I hug him "Yes I know and I love you for that, thank you." He nods and goes back into the living room. I go back to my room and stare at my walls. I get my headphones from my backpack. I go to soundcloud and shuffle my playlist.

"Don't you know I'm no good for you
I've learned to lose you, can't afford to
Tore my shirt to stop you bleeding
But nothing ever stops you leaving"