Forgive

Chapter 4

The next morning, I wake up with Happy's arms around me, holding me close. I feel him kiss the top of my head and whisper "Morning little girl." I pull away from him and say "Morning giant." before moving to get out of bed, refusing to look at him. "Let me see." he says and I finally look at him. The bruise isn't as bad today. "Couple more days and it should be gone. You using that cream?" he asks and I nod. "I'll start breakfast." I tell him. "I'll cook." he tells me and I look at him. Walking over to me, he kisses me softly and says "Relax today." I nod before he kisses me one more time and walks out of the room. I sit on the side of the bed and the tears start falling.

After breakfast, Tig's phone rings and he takes it out to the deck to answer. A few minutes later, he comes back in and says "Got the all clear. You're officially rid of us doll." he says and I just nod and take my coffee out to the back deck. Sitting on the steps, I look out at the yard and just think about all the nights I sat out there alone after Happy left me. He's going to be gone again and I can't decide if that's a good thing or a bad thing. "You okay?" I hear Happy ask as he sits beside me. "Figured you'd be packing you shit to go." I say. "Don't want to go." he tells me. "Happy..." I start. "Hear me out." he says. "Let me come home. I'll sleep in one of the guest rooms and we start from scratch. Do you remember all the times we would wake up in the middle of the night and just go for a ride?" he asks. "I remember. I also remember all the times we'd end up at the bluffs and me bent over your bike." I tell him. "Some of my favorite times." he says smirking. "Of course it was." I say before looking back out at the yard. "I remember all those nights sitting in that swing around the fire just talking about what we wanted for ourselves." he says. "Yeah. Finally got it and lost it all." I say and feel a tear fall. I look at him finally and say "Go on. Just give me a few days to think about shit." I tell him. "Okay." he says before kissing me softly. "I love you." he tells me again. "I know." I whisper before he stands and goes to get his things.

Pulling up at the clubhouse, the three of them dismount their bikes and head inside the clubhouse. "Church." Chibs says before they all head into chapel. Once inside, Chibs says "Now that we got shit taken care of, where were you guys hiding out?" he asks. "I had a place." Happy says and they look at him confused because he always stays at the clubhouse. "I thought you were somewhere that wasn't connected to you?" TO asks. "We were. It's Hap's Old Lady's house." Tig says smirking and Happy glares at him. "Wait. You have an Old Lady?" Rat asks. "Yeah brothers I do. Had my crow five years, been married three and separated two." he says and they all look at him shocked. "Holy shit." Montez says. "Why have you never brought her around?" Chibs asks. "Because he pissed her off." Tig says and Happy just shakes his head. "Trying to make shit right with her." Happy says. "Well, congrats brother. Hope it works out for you." Chibs says and they go on with the meeting.

That night, I am laying in bed, reading a book when my phone rings. "Hello." I say, not looking at the caller ID. "Hey Raven." I hear Jacob's voice on the other end of the line. "What do you want Jacob and how did you get my number?" I ask. "Doesn't matter how. I got your address too. Thought I'd come by for a talk." he says. "No, you won't. I told you I'm not interested and I didn't rat you out to the boss so just leave me alone." I tell him. "Well, I know you said you're married but I also know you're separated. So, you're going to let me take you out." he tells me. "No, I'm not." I tell him. "You will. You belong to me now." he tells me and I hear the malice in his voice. I hang up the phone and I look at the contacts and contemplate calling Happy but my phone rings again and it's Happy's name I see. "Happy." I say simply. "Hey. What's wrong?" he asks, hearing the anxiety in my voice. "I'm okay. What do you need?" I ask. "You're not okay. I know you Raven. Talk to me babe." he says. "It's nothing. What do you need?" I ask again. "Wanted to check on you." he tells me. "I'm fine Hap. I'm not your problem anymore." I tell him softly, still feeling a little uneasy. "You were never my problem. You're my wife." he tells me. I am silent for a minute before I ask "Can you come over? Please?" I ask softly, almost a whisper. "Be there in a few." he tells me before ending the call.

Twenty minutes later, I hear a knock on the door and I look through the peephole and see Happy standing there. I open the door and he walks in and pulls me to him and I didn't realize how much safer I felt with him until this moment. He tilts my head up and kisses me softly and says "I ain't going anywhere babe." I nod and pull him closer. A few minutes later there's another knock on the door. "You expecting anyone?" he asks and I shake my head no. He looks through the peephole and says "Some dude." I look and see it's Jacob. I tense up and Happy asks. "This why you're freaked out?" I nod my head and he says "Stay behind me." I nod and he opens the door. "You lost?" Happy asks. "I'm here to see Raven." Jacob says. "Leave Jacob. I told you to leave me alone." I say from behind Happy. "Who's this?" Jacob asks. "Her Old Man. Now she told you to leave her alone and that's what you're gonna do while that's still an option because you come near my Old Lady again and I will make you disappear." Happy says and Jacob visibly stiffens before running to his car and leaving. Happy closes the door and turns to me and says "I'm not leaving you again." I nod and he pulls me closer. "I love you Raven Lowman." he whispers. I look up at him and say "I love you Happy." before he picks me up and carries me back to bed. Getting undressed, we both climb into bed and for the first time in two years I let myself just be close to him without pushing him away.