After Nikki's confession last night I couldn't sleep, my head was all over the place. I didn't know whether I trusted Nikki enough to let him into my weird fucked up world.
But I knew deep down there were feelings for Nikki festering inside me, and I was finding them pretty fucking hard to dismiss.
I was thankful for the morning, despite getting no sleep.
"Ah the last breakfast" I walked into the kitchen and gave Danny a hug from behind.
"I'm gonna miss waking up to this" Danny sighed and gave me a small smile.
"Don't be stupid we'll be back on tour by next month!" I poked his side playfully.
"Good, I cant stay away from you for too long" he gave my forehead a light kiss and let me go. I walked over to Randy who was plucking at his bass.
"Excited for tonight kiddo?" he gave me a smile.
"Very" I gulped down some Jack — the breakfast of champions.
The last gig had been amazing, we were back where we started on the Sunset Strip, home. The crowd were loud as fuck and the atmosphere was electric, partly thanks to Mötley Crüe.
I had decided that I was going to finish the set with one of my new songs, admittedly it was sort of inspired by Nikki. But don't tell him that, his ego's already far too big.
I gulped quietly and began the song, making sure to keep eye contact with Nikki, just as he had done for Without You. His eyes kept on me with precision.
'Own the night I'm gonna get me high. And let me take you for so long'
I found myself getting lost in the words as I sang into the mic. The whole crowd had lighters up, I don't think life will get more rock and roll than this. I come to the end of the song making sure to stare hard into Nikki's glittering eyes.
'I'll be your woman satisfied. Save your life and give orders til the madness ensues'
I knew Nikki would understand what I was saying, I was never good with words unless they were a song. I saw a large smile dance across his face and I knew in that moment how much I was falling for him.
I nervously walked offstage, desperate to be met by Nikki, but to my disappointment he wasn't there to even congratulate us. I felt a wave of sadness hit me and I began to walk to the bathroom, I was nearly there when I felt two arms pull me into a room.
Nikki.
"Miss me?"
"Nikki you bastard! I thought you weren't gonna speak to me!" I hit him playfully.
"That sure was one hell of a song Heath" He gave me a warm smile, one that made my insides go to mush.
"Well I had a good muse to inspire me"
"Well, I wonder who that might be?" he touched his chin as if deep in thought, but i'd had enough of the playing around and I was desperate for some attention from Nikki.
I pushed him against me in the small cupboard and planted a passionate kiss on his lips. We both kissed roughly in this cramped cupboard before I pulled away.
"Nikki, look i'm sorry about everything and I really" I began but he silenced me by putting his finger on my lips.
"Shh, forget about that, what about now?" he asked, full of hope. I bit back a grin.
"I'm yours, that's if you'll have me"
Nikki's face instantly lit up and he planted another kiss on my lips, "It feels so good to hear you say that Lynn"
"It feels good to say it Sixx"
God, i'm really falling for this man.
