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"Care to explain park chaeyoung?" I mentally groaned and turned to chanyeol who dusted off the dust on his clothes.

"It's very dusty there, isn't it?" I helped him dust off his shirt when he held my hands.

"Look at me." I looked up and meet his serious stare which I wasn't accustomed to.

"We're were close, but not that much anymore." I removed my hands and sat down on my bed and he followed suit.

"I'm listening." I pushed a hair behind my ear and grabbed pillow to put it on my lap so I have something to fiddle with.

"He's not technically my ex. There was never an us." I silently added. It looked like we were, but there was no label.

"But I'm guessing it's not because you're not in love with each other..." I exhaled.

"It was before ok. And as you can see, our feelings isn't enough to fight for what we had, or what we were supposed to have." I can't look at him. It's embarrassing.

"Tell me more." My head snapped up to him.

"What made you give up?" I sucked in a breath. I have never shared with anyone what happened between Junhoe and me.

"My dreams. His dreams. Company rules." I answered honestly.

"If you were in different companies, would you have risked it?" I frowned.

"I don't know. I never really thought about it." I looked down but he held my chin and let me look at him.

"Do you still have feelings for him?" They say first love never dies. True. But it can be overcome by a love greater than it. And I believe that's what Ibhave with yeol.

"I like him.. as a friend." Junhoe will always have a place in heart, but not romantically. He sighed and let go of me.

"Don't overthink about it yeol. We never happened." I tried to assure him but he looked at me and it hurt to see doubt in his eyes.

"You know about things that never happened? It's the thought of what could have beens, never leaving your mind, especially if you really wanted it."

"But I haven't thought about it. Not even once. Because it's not a one-sided decision. We both made a mutual agreement, and that is to stay as friends." I'm getting frustrated.

"I see the way he looks at you. He still feels something for you. At camp, when you were not looking, he was. I thought nothing of it, thinking he's just looking out for you since you're from the same company but I guess that's not really the case." I stood up and paced. Why are we arguing about this?

"Let's just forget about it, it's the thing from the past that will not resurface." I put a hand on my hips and looked at him, but he's not looking at me. His eyes are on the floor.

"Not from the way I see it." What he said made my blood boil.

"What do you mean?! That I'll cheat on you?!" I could feel my voice rising.

"That's not what I'm saying!" I glared

"Then what?! He's my friend! What do you want me to do?! Unfriend him? That's just immature!" He frustratingly raked his hair and stood up as well.

"We'll talk about this another time." He tried to walk away but I grabbed his hand.

"No. We're talking about this right now." I crossed my arms over my chest and he has his on either side of his hips.

"I'm jealous. I'm jealous knowing he could have been in my place right now. It does not help that I can see myself being compared to him. We are both tall, we have both deep voices, he's a better singer than me. But I'm a better rapper." My brows connected.

"What are you saying? That I'm only with you cause I see him in you?!" My chest rise and fell from my outburst.

"Is it?" My mouth dropped.

"If that's the case then what about you?!"

"Me? What about me?" His brow arched

"Dara noona. You've always liked her. Heck! You wanted to marry her. Your fandom even knows about it!" I didn't wanna go that way but we're on the topic so why not?

"That was long ago and we don't even have any communication! I was a fan."

"I also see the way you looked at her. You also almost hugged her during that time you were a guest on sugarman!" I always wanted to bring that up.

"We won the game! And besides, I didn't get to hug her." I scoffed

"So you regret not getting to hug her?!"

"Can't I? Junhoe hugged you. Atleast dara noona and I didn't have something going on in the past that could have made us a couple."

"Oh so bringing it back on me."

"The guy could be considered your ex!" He pointed to the door as he yelled

"Either he was or whatever it doesn't change the fact that it's in the past! Cause if not, then we wouldn't have happened!" I panted. He looked shocked and pointed at me

"You said so yourself. If I'm not here, he would." I groaned

"No. I said if we were a couple til today, there wouldn't be me and you. Not if not for you, he would have been my boyfriend!" We're going in circles and I'm getting really pissed.

"You're not making any sense!"

"Me?! You're the one not making sense!" We glared at each other

"Great! Now you're the one walking out on me!" I ignored him and proceeded to walk towards my door.

"Shut up I'm hungry!" I stormed out and slammed the door shut. Ten pairs of eyes looked at me.

"Give me that!" I grabbed the bowl of pasta from yunhyeong's hand and ate a forkful of it.

"Uhmmm. You ok chaeng?" I glared at junhoe who put his hands up in surrender.

"What did I do?" I hear him whisper.

"What are you guys looking at?!" They all resumed to whatever they were doing. Yunhyeong stared at the bowl longingly but hanbin grabbed him away.