My Life in a Dark World

                    Thursday, 07/18/19
     On Thursday, one of my friends An invites all of us to go to the pool. My dad told me to bring sunscreen but I didn't because I'm stubborn. And it was also really hot. Like Satan's Front Lawn.

I get to the pool and I'm waiting for An, Em, and the kid she's babysitting when Em's Mom and brother spot me. Ironically, they were there as the same time as us. There were also daycampers there which I though it would've been busy but it want that bad.

An shows up and we change in the locker room. We wait for Em a little bit and then realized that she was going to take a while and we go in the pool. Em shows up a little bit later and we hang out with her and the kid she was babysitting.

We also see a guy friend, Kal, and his friend, Sam. I was friends with Kal and I wouldn't really call Sam a friend. I ended up spilling the tea with them about how some boys think they're better then they actually are. An and I hang out with Em, the kid, (forgot her name) Kal, Sam, and Em's mom and brother. Em's brother kept on "slitting" our throats.

After awhile, An and I decided to get snacks because we both didn't have lunch.  We both got nachos but they didn't give us enough cheese so we were both sad about that.

We go back in the pool for awhile more and An and I are wanting ice cream. Kal overhears and asks if I could buy him ice cream because he had no money. I had spent the $15 my dad gave me and I found a 50 in my wallet. I wanted to exchange it and Kal offered. Kal ended up spending more than I thought he would which I wasn't expecting but it was fine.

I noticed that I was getting kind of red and so I borrow some of An's sunscreen. I thought it was gonna be minor. An and I hang out with everybody a bit more and Em, her mom, and brother leave and it was then just An and I. When we go back to change, we noticed we were sunburnt. I didn't know I was sunburnt as badly as I thought until later that night. I looked like a lobster and An looked the same way. I should have listened to my dad and used more sunscreen. Yeah, I was burnt.

I go home and rest in pain.

                         Friday, 07/19/19
Yesterday was Chris and I's one year anniversary. I can't believe it's already been a year. We both grown as people and changed so much in the past year. It's crazy to think that we were the same people a year ago. At the beginning, I didn't think we would be together this long. I thought we would last for like a month and then break up. But this was so much more.

When I found out that my grandparents were moving to the same city where he lives, I got excited because I knew that there would be a chance in meeting him. I'm so glad my family hesitantly let me meet him.

I wanted to post about my relationship freely yesterday but I knew I couldn't. My aunt and uncle disapproved of our relationship and probably told all of my family out there the same. My aunt messaged me after I'd gotten back from Idaho and I had updated my status on Facebook saying Chris and I were in a relationship. She basically told me that I don't know my self esteem because I'm with him and that I'm out of his league. Those comments hurt me a lot and I still think about them a lot. They came to mind when it came close to our one year. They had judged him and his mom so harshly that I didn't want to get those comments again. Chris didn't deserve to get judged like that, like they barely still even know him. If they would have actually sat down with him and talk, they would know more about him and not judge him like assholes. It just sucks my aunt and uncle aren't happy for me. I'm a the happiest I've ever been and if they can't see that, then screw them. I ended posting him on everything and changed my post settings so that they couldn't see the post.

I'm just really glad that Chris and I made it through a year. It wasn't the easiest thing ever, but we did it. ChrisYandle ❤️❤️❤️

Chris also loves the present I gave him which I'm relieved. It's 365 reasons why I love him and he's supposed to read one every day of the year. He thought it was a cute idea.

My sunburn hurts like hell yesterday. My aloe vera, cold showers, and advil are my saving grace. I hate clothes touching it because it hurts then. I wish I used sunscreen like my dad told me to. I go to camp soon and I'm gonna have to deal with peeling all week. Which will suck but oh well.

            Today, Saturday, 07/20/19
I'm healing from my sunburn today and I'm so glad about that. It still hurts but my mom said it'll start peeling tomorrow. My mom picks me up and I get a haircut. I ended up getting it cut 9 inches and I love it. It just got too hot for long hair. It's so hot today, I'm dying and it's 95 degrees.

After the haircut, we go to Moe's for lunch and then we go to CVS and Walmart to finish up camp shopping for tomorrow. I'm going to church camp tomorrow for a week and won't be allowed to have my phone. I'm learning how to be a counselor this year and it'll take four summers to complete. (Sorry if I've already mention it)

Anyways, that was it for right now. I'll update when I come back home from camp. I'm being a notebook and I'm writing about what happens each day. I hope I have fun at camp and my sunburn doesn't get worse.