Beauty & The Nerd

Since I walked into class and settled down in my usual place, Nina had been staring at me continuously, I pulled out a book, finished reading five pages of it and she was still staring.

"You know what?" She finally spoke up.

"What Nina?" I sighed as I closed the book and looked at her seriously.

"I don't think you like Khushi." She said looking dead serious, well I dint think I liked her anymore either.

"Great I think so too, the way she's been clearly treating me I wonder why I ever liked her." I rolled my eyes at her.

"You're an idiot, that's no what I meant, I was just trying to tell you that what you feel towards her it isn't just like, it's stronger, you wouldn't be acting this way if you only liked her." She said.

"And how am I acting?"

"Like a guy that's lost the only girl he ever loved." She giggled.

"I don't know about Love Nina, but I can definitely say I lost the only girl I ever thought I could love, because you know she said that even if I was the last guy on earth she'd consider staying single than be with me.

Why is she so mean? I mean I get it, I am a nerd, I am not as handsome as the other guy she dates but it doesn't mean I don't deserve to be loved." The words she said to me last night had been constantly repeating themselves in my mind and I dint know what to do about it.

"I know what we can do to make her like you. You need a makeover, get rid of this glasses, maybe shave off this beard, gel your hair and comb it backwards, you'll look so good." Nina looked at me excitedly as I looked back at her in disbelief.

I ignored her and looked at the board, why wasn't the lecturer coming? I was done thinking about Khushi, I needed some distraction.

"Why are you acting like you dint hear what I just said?" Nina nudged me.

"Because it's stupid and ridiculous and never going to happen." I said.

"But why now? Don't you want Khushi to notice you?" She pouted.

"Exactly Nina, I want her to notice me, not an improved better looking version of me, whatever you're saying works in movies and looks kind of good but it's actually stupid.

I am not going to change the way I look for her to notice me Nina, that's stupid, she better never notices me than me doing all this crazy stuff for her to notice me." I looked back at the board.

"Who are you?" She asked.

"What?" I looked at her again, why was she acting like a confused element today?

"I haven't been here longer Arnav but for the time I've been here, I've seen guys running behind her, doing crazy things to be with her and I'm giving you such a great idea but you're not taking it, why?" She asked.

"Look Nina, I don't mind doing things for her, like getting her chocolates or surprising her or taking her for a date or something, if it makes her happy I'd do it repeatedly but changing myself so she can notice me isn't something I want to do.

This is who I am, if she has to like me then she will like me this way otherwise I am okay with my one sided feelings." I explained, Nina just nodded silently and then finally stopped asking me questions.

It looked like the lecturer wasn't going to come and before Nina could start asking me more questions, I decided to pick my stuff and head to the library, I could at least use this time to read.

I turned around to pick my bag and to my surprise, Khushi was seated on the bench right behind mine.

When did she even come in? Or was she here before? How come I dint notice her? Anyway it dint even look like she cared because she was busy staring at her phone, so I grabbed my bag and headed out of the class.