From The Beginning [ Peter Pan X Reader ] B1

One Week later

Your POV

Peter ignored me the whole week. This made me so self conscious of myself that I wore blue jeans and a long sleeved baggy sweater. Peter had a bunch of girl fitting clothing in the cabinets of what was my new house. It was like he was prepared for me to come to Neverland. I couldn't stop thinking about the night we kissed. It felt so different but so good. He must of just not felt the same by the way he left so abruptly.

I was with Felix in the fields where I picked berries every morning, at least for the week that I've been here. I didn't do much around here. I just got the berries and take care of the young lost boys while the older ones had training. Training for... I'm not very sure and I didn't question. I mean we're on a island, what could they possibly be training for? I always had someone watching over me though. Peter always had someone there watching my every move. I wasn't sure if it was a possession thing or because he was afraid of me leaving, maybe both? He watched me too, but not close enough so we could start a conversation. Just when I was around other lost boys too. The jealousy was thick in his eyes and dark too when I was talking to the lost boys. But then why did he leave?

These questions are hurting my brain.

Felix and I became close. He became more kind to me since the first time we met. I hoped it was genuine and not because Peter told him to. I had a lot of questions and today Felix and I were alone, so I could finally ask them. I said first, "Felix I need to ask you something."

Felix looked up from the ground and rose his eyebrow at me, "Whats up?"

"Why isn't Peter talking to me?" I looked at Felix's eyes now because I wanted him to see this was important.

"I don't know. He hasn't told me anything about you two talking. Just that you can't be left alone and that he has his reasons." Oh he had his reasons alright. He asked me a question now, "Why? Did you and Pan fight or something?"

I breathed in slowly and answered, "Not exactly. It's just-" I paused thinking really hard about my next words, "Has Peter ever loved anyone?" His face had a confused expression now like, did I really just use "Peter"and "love" in the same question?'

After a couple second he finally answered, "No he has never loved anyone truly. He's not a guy who loves someone. He cares about people like you, me, and the lost boys, but Pan has never loved another person in a very, very long time." When he said a "long time," that made me think, how long?

"Welllll, how long Felix?" He sat down now realizing this conversation was going to be a long one.

"Thats not something I know, and if I did, that's not something he would want me to discuss. But now I have to ask, why do you care?"

"Well I don't think thats something HE would want me to discuss ," I answered smugly. My own joke made me laugh for the first time in a week. Felix smiled at my comment too.

Pan POV

I was in the jungle near the field when I saw Y/N and Felix. I did trust Felix, especially since I made him my right hand and he was very loyal. Even if that's true, I just couldn't get someone else making her want them out of my head. I peeked through the bushes and saw Y/n smiling but not a innocent smile, a happy one. Then I saw Felix looking at her and sitting next to her with that beautiful smile of hers and it was gestured for him. Not me.

My heart, my dark, blackened heart cracked. My mind went everywhere. Every possible bad thought of her with someone else came to the surface in my brain. I clenched my fists so hard, I felt like blood was going to come from where my nails were digging. My eyes, if I could see them I knew they would be black. I left and ran to camp before I did something I would regret, and I don't regret much.