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Birthdays // A Sudden, Unnecessary Preference

♡ HIS BIRTHDAY

♡ About the same. His though, are spent with long calls while he's out on patrol all day while you sit in his bedroom (May is more than familiar with you in her house - you sleep there when your mom is out on business, and anytime your mom is gonna be home late, you stay there so you don't have to be alone), giggling and trying to make him laugh while he stops crimes. Then, when he comes home, you light the cupcake that you both always share, and he blows it out, and you kiss, get up to go to the little party May organises every year, get distracted, kiss again, get up, repeat until Ned walks in and drags you out. His gift is always just as sweet and personal, and you always throw a little something in there for him to open in front of the group of people that watch him open gifts - they wouldn't understand why he needed a rubber duck that also served as a magic 8 ball, but that's showbiz, and that's for later when you two are alone.

Bucky Barnes~

♡ YOUR BIRTHDAY

♡ Breakfast in bed, which is swiftly swept off the bed for morning sex (because, let's be honest, he just would). Every year you try and go somewhere you can remember from your childhood, like your elementary school or the park with the pond your sister pushed you into or the first bar you got stood up in, and you just talk and talk about everything that happened there. There's a lot of "AND THEN," and "so basically," and "anyways, that wasn't part of the story," but every time he giggles at your hasty fillers and soon you don't add them, just telling him story after story after story while you sit wherever you can that's closest to the place. Then you go home, more sex, he makes you dinner, more sex, and then you go to bed. Usually. Sometimes there's more sex.

♡ HIS BIRTHDAY

♡ He doesn't like a big deal - you stay holed up in the house, and you just talk all day. He tells you everything he noticed during the year that he forgot to tell you about when it happened, like the man sat across from him with at least eight phallic tattoos and a hairless cat in his lap on a bedazzled leash. And, more often than not, he'll tell you about the war, and what he can remember of the Winter Soldier. He cries every year and you just hold him and comfort him softly. This goes on all day, and all night. In a weird way, it's your favourite day of the year.

Steve Rogers~

♡  YOUR BIRTHDAY

♡ You wake up in your house - you and Steve have your apartment, but as well as that you have your little house in Brooklyn, a mid point between your childhood home and his. None of the Avengers know about it but Bucky, Nat and Sam, and that's usually who you spend the day with. It's never a big thing, just doing everything you usually do during the day with Steve doing his very best to distract you, then teasingly telling you to keep doing what you were doing whenever you give it, and in the late afternoon, Bucky, Nat and Sam come over with drinks and you play childish games like truth or dare and never have I ever until they all go home. You and Steve go up onto the roof to look at the city lights, staying up there for as long as you can before retiring downstairs. You don't need anything special - Steve is special enough on his own.

♡ HIS BIRTHDAY

♡ You rarely get to see him on his birthday until the evening. You both stay at the compound for Tony's sake so he can use Steve as an excuse to throw a kick-ass party, and you wake up and give him his gift. Then, like she's a psychic, Nat comes in and drags you away to get you ready, and according to every single person in the compound he isn't allowed to see you at any time that day. Of course, you sneak quick kisses and they occasional fifteen-minute conversation, him trying not to get too carried away (Nat also seems to be psychic when it comes to that too, which you had to learn the hard way). In the evening, you come downstairs and he always stops what he's doing, and calls you beautiful, and you can always tell he's trying not to kiss you in front of all these people (he loves a PDA as much as the next guy, but he doesn't want to make you feel uncomfortable - the idea of all his coworkers watching you two kiss just feels wrong, and he respects that, and understands that). Eventually, Tony manages to get everyone drunk enough to play games that either involve stripping, making out or lap dances. He doesn't quite understand your boundaries like Steve does, so when he gets a little too much you both go upstairs and just talk about stupid things until you fall asleep, fully dressed and sat on the covers in the bedroom, but always entwined with each other, and always content.

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SO IN CASE I DIDN'T MAKE IT EXCESSIVELY OBVIOUS

GUESS WHAT DAY IT IS

GUESS WHO AGED

GUESS WHO IS HYPER AS F U C K

WHOOP WHOOP IT'S VIV THAT'S WHO!!

okay, embarrassing excitement aside, it's my birthday!!

and i know it's totally foreshadowing to say this, but i think this year is going to be a lot calmer for me, and my mental state might get back on track more often

a lot of stuff changed since i turned fourteen, mostly for the better

no-one cares, but i'm gonna make a list of things that got better for me:))

1. friendships

2. my mental situation (still totally shitty, but i don't self harm anymore, and i'm proud to say that. sometimes i scratch my arms or whatever when i'm having an "episode" but usually it's not enough to tear the skin, and i feel bad for it afterwards, so i'm improving)

3. my writing. full-length novel? check. beginning of a second? check. this whole account? check.

4. my confidence. it was never through the roof (year 8 viv has left the chat) but it really is improving. i don't feel as bad about showing my skin, i don't feel like i have to hide my body or even that i should, and for fucks sake i AM pretty sometimes!! just because i'm not on a zendaya level, doesn't mean i'm not still cute!!

5. the relationship type thing. i got into one (then i got out of it but beside the point), i had my first kiss (yes, i had my first kiss at fourteen, and although, yes, i probably should have kissed someone before, i'm just fuckin unappealing. haha there goes my self confidence)

and that is that!!

and also, i'm kinda weirder and more awkward but that's chill

well, all love, and i hope you all enjoy your day as much as i hope to!!

viv (who is now fifteen) x