We get home from the robbery.
I take a couple of hundreds and put them in my pocket.
"Hey Noodles."I say smiling.
"Why are u so happy?"He laughs.
"Cuz we robbed it successfully."I say.
"We do a lot of things successfully."He says.
I laugh then I look over and see Anaya laughing as Joey picks her up and she starts laughing more.
I saw how happy Joey was.
My whole mood just changed.
Then I saw them go into a room.
Ow my heart.
Asher comes and sits next to me.
"Hey beautiful."He says.
I smile.
"Do you want some food?"He asks me.
Dude I love food.i eat so much. Like I would eat the whole fridge in a hour.
But I didn't feel like eating.
"Nah I'm good."I say.
"Whattt you love food what you mean?"He looked surprised.
"I'm just not hungry."I said looking down at my fingers.
"I swear you were hella hyper like 10 minutes ago.are u okay?"He says.
"Yea I'm fine."I lie.
"Ramen."I look at noodles.
"Yea."He says.
"Girl problem."I say whispering asher doesn't hear.
He nods and goes to his room and signals me to come.
I walk over to his room.
"Spill it.im listening."He says getting comfy on a bed.
"Okay don't tel no one okay."I say.
"Haha! Lmao i would never. This is always gonna be girl talk. And girl talk stays between the girls.well just pretend I'm a girl."He says.
I laugh.
"So I-I don't know what to think anymore."I say fiddling with my fingers.
"Like. I don't know what to feel and think."I say.
"Is this about Joey?"He whispers.
I nod slowly.
"Okay gotcha."He says.
"Noodles."I say sadly.
"Yes."He says.
"Do you think Joey and Anaya are happy together?"I say.
"No. They are not."He says.
"How?they look so happ-"
"I'm Stop you right there.honey you don't know what has happened."Ramen says.
"They aren't happy. Joey doesn't love her. "He says.
"How do u know?"I say.
"First of all I see in his eyes when he looks at her he doesn't want to even be with her."Noodles explains.
"But."
"No kiana he doesn't. "Ramen says.
My eyes start to water.
"Are u okay?"He says.
Then that's when I start balling. I don't know why but when someone asks me if I'm okay and I'm sad I will ball.
Ramen hugs me.
"I don't know Ramen I saw how happy he was."I say sobbing.
"Girl. You are crying over a boy."ramen shakes me.
"Your right."I wipe my tear.
"Can I tel you something."I say.
"Yes of course."He says.
"We kissed before the mission."I say.
Ramens mouth dropped.
"Well of course . BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE LOVE BIRDS AMD you CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF EACH OTHER."Ramen says happily.
"What did he say?"Ramen says.
"He said he doesn't love her."I say.
"Well there you go. YOUR ANSWER .thank you very much."Ramen claps.
"But I saw the way he looked at her."I say sadly.
"Pshhh. Joey? Nah he wants you."Ramen says.
I laugh.
"Imma go get some water."I say getting up.
I wipe my ears with my sleeve.
I walk out to the kitchen.
I grab a glass and drink it.
Then I heard them. In the room. Damn she hella loud .
They were. Fucking.
"Way to ruin my mood again."I say to myself.
I walk into ramens room.
"Why are u sad again?"He looks at me.
"They are fucking in the other room."My eyes widen.
Ramen gets up and walks out to the living room.
"Ramen?"I say following him.
He goes up to joeys door and knocks on it.
"Yes?"Joey says out of breath.
"Joey Tell your bitch to moan quieter. Kiana can hear it. Ever care to think how she may feel? That's dumb fucked up joey ."Ramen says.
"Ramen."My eyes widen.
"It's fine."He says.
"Why did you mention me."I say a little but panicking.
"It's fine baby girl your fine.joeys stupid ass should know that you is in the house."He says.
"Ah Ramen Thank you."I say.
"No problem."He says.
"You know I love you to death and I would to anything to make my bestfriend happy."Ramen says.
"And if anything happens that she don't liek then I definitely don't like it either."Ramen says.
I laugh and hug Ramen.
"13 reasons why?"Ramen asks me.
"Yup.but first food."I say.
I made some popcorn.
We came into ramens room and took lots of blankets and started watching netflix.
Next day
I wake up from ramen snoring.
I get up rubbing my eyes.
I walk to the kitchen for water.
Joey walked in too.
"Hey."He says.
I look at him .
"Hey."I say silently looking down.
"What's wrong?"He says.
"Nothing."I say silently.
"Come on what's wrong?"He says.
"Nothin Joey. Imma go to get the mail."I say.
"I'm coming."He says.
"I'm going by myself."I say.
"Not alone your not."Joey says.
"Come on Joey it's literally down the street."I say.
"I'm always gonna come with you kiana."He says.
"Why don't you go protect your girlfriend?"I say a little with a attitude.
Kiana he grabs my arm.
"I don't love her I told you."He says.
"That's not What last night explains."I say.
"I have to fuck her. If we don't fuck then she gonna be mad."Joey says.
"Joey. I- why are u even with her?"I say.
"I-"Joey says.
"I saw the way you looked at her."I say.
"Hey."He says grabbing my face with his palm.
He looks into my eyes. I felt butterflies.
My eyes start to water for no reason.
His face goes into immediate concern.
Fuck fuck fuck. This is embarrassing. Really tear ducts. You really gotta do my liek that.
"Why are u crying?"He looks concerned.
"No. No no. "He says.
"I made u cry."He says.
"I'm sorey. No."He says wiping my tears.
"Fuck. I made you cry. "He looked at me.
"I don't know why I'm crying."I say teary.
"I hurt you. I hurt your heart."He says.
No stop Joey your gonna make be ball.
"I'm sorry."He says.
Asher comes In
"Why is she crying?"He asks me.
"What did you do?"he pushes Joey
"Chill man."He says.
"Stay the fuck away from her."asher spits on him
"Kiana lets go."He grabs my arm and pulls me to his room.
Joey POV
I pace around the room.
"I'm such a fucking dumb fuck."I say.
The only reason why I'm with Anaya is because I wanted to distract myself from kiana.
I can't trust myself. I will hurt her. Fuck! How did I hurt her when I'm not even dating her?
I look at myself in the mirror.
I look at my self.
I feel so fucking worthless.
I felt my heart getting numb as I heard laughter that was coming from Ashers room.
Why do I feel like this.
Why do I care about her so much?
Why is she always on my mind.
I stopped and realized.
That's when I knew...
