Watching the days go by, without you by my side ( A Camren One Shot)

Hello beautiful people! I know I said that I would write a Laurmani one shot but I sorta felt inspired to write a camren one instead. I'm not a camren shipper but I hope you all enjoy this story filled but losts of drama and sadness! comment, vote and let me know what you think

SHOUTOUT TO: @Candy_Mint for the fabulous book cover(: ya'll should really follow her and check out her stories:) <33

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Camila's POV

Why? Why didn't anyone tell me that love wasn't permanent and that it's only temporary. They only tell you about the good things like, when your girlfriend or boyfriend stares into your eyes, you will get butterflies or when you two are not together, you feel hopeless because without them, you're incomplete or when you hear someone talking about the person you love, you have this stupid grin on your face and you start to turn red like a tomato. I was that hopeless romantic a couple of months ago but that all ended when I broke up with my girlfriend. Lauren. Lauren Jauregui.

When I started dating Lauren, I was scared. Scared that I will ruin the relationship because I've never had a girlfriend or boyfriend until I met her. She made me comfortable and when I would be with her, not only did I feel like myself, I felt like I didn't have to change who I was just to get her approval. She accepted my lame jokes, my love for bananas, my constant rambling about one direction. She accepted all of it and still loved me endlessly. I never knew that being loved was one of the most greatest things but when you're broken up, everything you once felt for each other starts going away and I don't want that. I don't want what we had to become memories. She was my first everything and without her, I'm nothing.

" Do you want to throw away this?" I heard someone say. I looked at Normani, who was holding up a t shirt of my favourite group, the 1975, " Oh, apparently you have two so do you want to keep one or?"

I looked at the shirts and remembered all of the places we went in them. Lauren took me their concert a while back with our friend Ally and it was one of the best nights of my life. If I threw these shirts away, I would be throwing away memories. I would be giving Normani and everyone else the impression that I'm completely over her when the truth is, I'm not. Normani is helping me clean my room which means, I would have to throw away some things but everything in here reminds me of her. I'm not ready to go say goodbye yet.

I watched as Normani walked over to where I was sitting on the floor and sat down next to me.

" If you want to cry, you can you know?" she said looking at me, " Trust me Mila, I know exactly what your going through. We all do. Break ups are hard and when it comes to moving on or saying goodbye, you get this urge to hold on just a little bit longer even if you know that might not be the best thing to do. You just feel so hopeless, sad, weak, tired because the person that you once loved was your reason to be happy. They were the sun after a stormy weather. Now that they're gone, all you see is black."

" Is this what being broken feels like?" I asked as my voice was getting shaky, " I know we weren't dating for a very long time but to me we were. She was my first real relationship, Mani. She was the first person I kissed, the first person I got butterflies with, the first person I sang and played the guitar too, she was the first person that made me feel what making love felt like. She was my everything and we ended it because some stupid people wouldn't leave her alone about her sexual orientation. We got so much hate." I said as I started to remember the words people would call us, " Every minute that passes by, I wish I was passing them with her. You know, in the morning I would get mini panic attacks because I would wake up and realize that we've broken up."