trace less [minizerk]

remember all the times we shared?

remember all the times we looked in each other's eyes?

remember all the times i wanted to hold your hand?

remember all the times i wanted to hold you in your sleep? when you were restless and in a battle with your nightmares?

they're gone.

all of them.

this should have never happened to you, you never deserved this. you were the last person to deserve this.

what kind of sick fuck even does that?

to break your courier? cancel you? it just makes no sense! and i can't sleep at night because all i want to do is find... answers.

i need answers.

i need you.

i wish i told you how i felt. i regret not holding your hand. i regret not holding you in your sleep to stop your nightmares.

and i know you love me back, all the guys have said so. you confided in them about our relationship.

and you never got to tell me to my face how you felt.

because you were too scared of rejection.

you were too scared of washing seven years of friendship down the drain. who wouldn't be?

i just wish...

i wish we told each other. and i wish this never happened.

i love you simon. and i always will.