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"you make it look like it's magic"

"oooooh i like this song, come come, let's dance"
i say while getting up and pulling on finns arm to dance

maybe it was the one to many drinks we've had or maybe it was just the atmosphere, but the air had a tension, as i felt finn's warm breath against the weak spot in between my neck and jawline

"cause i see nobody, nobody"

"but you, you, you" i say singing along with the lyrics

"i'm so used to being used" finn whispers in to my ear, almost moaning i bite my lip to shut my mouth the fuck up

it definitely wasn't just because of our intoxicated states, the sexual tension was strong, anyone could feel it, but at the moment it was just the two of us

"so i'ma care for you, you, you"
"i'ma care for you, you, you, you, yeah"
"cause girl you're perfect, your always worth it"

at this point we just stopped dancing, singing, thinking and just stood there in the middle of my apartment in the midsts of busy vancouver silent wanting atleast one of us to break it

it was a silence that was so awkward yet so intriguing, him and i both knew one thing and it was that we both needed it, that we both have been craving from the minute he step foot in my apartment

"your always worth it, and you deserve it, the way you work it"
"cause girl you earned it, yeah"
"girl you earned it, yeah"

"you know our love would be tragic" i say while motioning him to lay down on the couch

"so you don't pay it, don't pay it no mind"
i start tracing fingers up to his chest and stopping as he sucks a breath in sharply

i slowly started to take my denim jacket off teasing him with the precious time that i was taking

he wasn't being patient, he was tapping his knee with his pointer finger, getting hot, staring intensively

i loved this effect

"so i love when you call unexpected"
"cause i hate when the moments expected"

he couldn't take it anymore and aggressively grabs me by the waist and pushes me down on to the couch, straddling and looking down at me with nothing but lust and darkness appearing in his eyes

we both yearned the touch
so he filled that urge

he smashed his lips against mine getting straight to what we both wanted

"cause girl you're perfect"
"your always worth it"
"and you deserve it"

now it was my turn to be inpatient, he was taking his shirt of painfully slow, making me groan

"finn"

he then started to speed up, causing my heart rate increase

"cause girl you earned it, yeah"
"girl you earned it, yeah"

"i've wanted this for ages, you have no idea" finns says breathless

"can say the same thing"

that incident, that night, that one stupid fucking evening one year ago that was meant to be just two friends catching up, leads to me standing outside of a bar with nothing but a fuck load of tears and pain

"on that lonely night"
"you said it wouldn't be love"
"but we felt the rush"
"it made us believe it there was only us"
"convinced we were broken inside, yeah"

when the weeknd said that
i felt that.

sooooooo this was absolute dog shit buuuuuut let me know how you felt about it😬😬