Like A Butterfly // Tags, Rants, and Me in a Nutshell

Kinda late, I know, but I had it all typed up... and of course I forgot to post it.

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I'm gonna say that 2019 was about this worst year I've ever had in the history of my existence. Even my whole family agrees, and that's saying something.

January left me thinking about the year before a whole bunch. Not much to say here, really.

February apparently didn't give me much because I don't remember it.

March was the month of birthdays in my family. Three of my siblings have birthdays here.

April was a month I was looking forward to in many ways, but I was also dreading it. I finally became a legal adult this month and it was odd. Not to mention I had to grow up way too soon, so I wasn't ready to not be a kid anymore. This was also the last time I saw my grandparents before November, which was hard for me.

May was just where I was still dealing with an adult. Plus, because I kinda kept reminiscing over old memories, I became a little bitter about life and still am.

June is not memorable for me. I literally don't know if I remember anything special from this month besides maybe having a repeat of May... if anything, I was preparing for camp.

July was a month I was looking forward to because I got to go to summer camp with my youth group for the last time. Although I struggled with some loneliness because the people I knew graduated the year before, I made a new friend from a different church. All in all, it was a good week because I learned so much about accepting God as my Heavenly Father despite what I've been through with my earthly father, if that makes sense. It's so personal. This also marks a year since I started my first TFP fanfiction online in my notes (I have plenty other stories including a TFP one on paper, mind you, until I realized typing it was better than writing it), which I'm still working on... no judging.

August was right after summer camp, and I was racing to sign up for college classes last minute. I don't even know why we held it off like that, but I literally got into classes last minute and I'm thankful that my ASL teacher allowed us in legit during class... but we didn't stay because we thought we weren't allowed to until we saw the dean xD

September was a month of adjusting. I hadn't really been to school in ages because I've been homeschooled since fourth grade. So, having one class on campus was a good way to ease me into being around other people. My dad also was able to get authorized for removing his cochlear implant, which is a private blessing for my family.

October was a stressful month in regards to college. With all of the midterms and having to tell our ASL teacher why me and my sister's project was unique... I'm thankful she understood it was a touchy subject and said we could show it to her alone. I got mostly good grades on my quizzes. I think I started watching She-Ra 2018 at this point?

November was an exciting month because I got to go to California. My dad had surgery to take out his cochlear implant, and because of that we got to stay with our grandparents for a good chunk of that month.

December was one of the worst months in my life. I had just seen my grandparents and wished we could move closer to them. I finally finished my college classes for the semester with A's, which did make me feel a little sad but happy when ASL teacher loved our group project. My dog also died on the 30th, and I'm still unable to deal with my feelings.

My goals were:

1. Read the whole Bible in a year. I didn't even get through half of it because of chaos in my life. Epic fail. (0/5)
2. 抖阴社区 my original story. I wrote some of it, which is good enough for me. Half fail and half success. (2.5/5)
3. Read 100 books in 2019. When July came around, I knew it wasn't happening. I lowered my goal to 50, but it still didn't happen. I only read 28?. Fail. (2.5/5)
4. Complete my Transformers Prime fanfic. I finished it and have edited so much, but it's not completely done yet. Success. (5/5)
5. Pass my college classes with an A, at least. Some of them were barely there, but still happy. Success. (5/5)
6. Get back into reviewing books on Goodreads. I kind of did, but not as much as I normally would have liked to. More of a fail at this point. (1/5)
7. Strengthen my relationship with God. Ehhh, so-so. (2.5/5)
8. Figure out what my body is having issues with. Nope, still trying to see. Fail. (0/5)