The Babysitter

trigger warning:
pills +
mentions of abuse +
minor abuse.
just a warning.
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Don't think I can take it
With every drama a piece of me dies
Like some kind of sadist
I think that he likes to see the pain in my eyes
He knows that I'm lovesick
He kissed me and promised I will be alright
We both know it's messed up
The longer I'm with him the less I'm alive.
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Once we had stepped into Regina's house I knew the questions we're gonna come.

"What happened?" She questioned. "You didn't talk the whole way home, and you usually talk all the time"

"Nothing happened" I smiled. "Everything went fine"

"Mhm." She said. I know she didn't believe me. "Want some food?" She asked walking to the kitchen.

"Sure" I smiled. "I'm gonna go to the bathroom real quick" I ran up the stairs.

I got into the bathroom and locked the door. I pulled my medicine out of my duffel bag, and opened the bottle. The last time I took this stuff was very long ago. It helps, with everything; the pain, the thoughts. It calms me. I threw three pills into my mouth and grabbed my packed water bottle to swallow them. That should do it.
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Doctor's on the other line
'Cause he's not coming home tonight
And I just took my very last pill
Need something to numb the pain
Demons knocking on my brain
I think they coming in for the kill
Nine one one, I need someone
While my baby plays me like a game
I'm not having fun
Nine one one, tell him he's won
Why my heart is always aching
And I gotta be done 'cause
I, I, I gotta lose my guy
Oh I, I'm, I'm gonna lose my mind.
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Regina's POV
Emma didn't seem okay, meaning she isn't. I'm not sure what happened inside of that house, but I wish she would tell me. I somehow have to find a way to get Ava to live here, if I could just get those two away from him it'll be okay. I decide to pick up my phone and call Killian. I only have his number because I babysat Ava a lot.

The line continued to ring, after a few seconds someone had picked up.

"Regina? May I help you?" He questioned.

"What did you do to Emma?" I asked.

"Only what she deserved luv" he whispered.

The line had went dead after that. I tried to call him back, but there was no answer.

After a few minutes Emma had come down the stairs, and smiled at me.

"Are you alright?" I asked her.

She just nodded. Meaning no.

"Can you please talk to me?" I sighed. "I'm here for you"

She just continued to look down into her hands. "I can't"

"Em, I won't tell anyone" I got closer to her. "I promise" I held out my pinky, she always felt she could open up more when I did her pinky promises. Things like this is what made her cute.

"He.." she started trailing off. I grabbed her hand. "He hit me" she sniffed. "But it's okay, not a big deal, I'm fine"

The blood that ran through my veins was boiling. I couldn't believe him, why would he feel the need to hurt her? Just because she doesn't want to be with him?

"Em" she flinched when I said her name. "I'm here okay, I'm always going to be here"

She didn't respond after that.

"I'm making hot cocoa with cinnamon, and grilled cheese. It may not be like granny's but I know it's your favorite" I smiled at her.

She still didn't make any eye contact, it's like she wasn't here, it's like she was in her head.

"Emma" I said.

"Um, sorry what?"

"Nothing love, you alright?" I asked again.

She nodded. She still wasn't.

"Grilled cheese and hot cocoa, you're too kind" she smiled up at me. But it wasn't her smile that I know.

"I'm going to go freshen up, I'll be back dear" I kissed Emma on the forehead.

I went upstairs, picked out some pajamas, some for me, and some for Emma. We could match. I grabbed mine and headed for the bathroom. I walked in and started the shower. As I was walking back towards the mirror I noticed a pill bottle. I'm assuming it was Emma's possibly for the pain, I didn't think too much of it. I just put it away in the cabinet. I hopped in the shower and thoughts about Emma immediately started crossing my mind, I love her, and I don't want her in pain, and I definitely don't want her daughter experiencing any pain of the absence of her mother.

"Regina.." I heard a voice say softly. "Can I come in?"

"Yes, of course" I peaked my head past the curtain to reassure it was Emma. "What's wrong?"

"Just didn't want to be alone" she put the toilet seat down, and sat on it. "Thank you for everything, I appreciate it" she sighed. "I'm sorry for dragging you into this."

"You didn't drag me into this, I'm happy to be here for you, I love you, remember"

"Um, yeah" She sniffed. Something's wrong. "I need to go get something for this pain I'll be back"

"The pills? They're in the cabinet, you left them in here" I pointed to the cabinet.

"O-oh okay, thanks" she smiled.

"Don't take to many, need you alive, the pain will go away eventually Em" I explained. "Would you like to join me in here?" I asked, hoping she would say yes.

"Is that okay?"

"Of course, come on"

She took off her clothes, and came into the shower with me.

"You're beautiful you know that?" I reassured her.

"So are you" she said smiling.

I kissed her on the lips, and it had only escalated from there. I love her. I love her. I love her.
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We fall apart as it gets dark
I'm in your arms in Central Park
There's nothing you could do or say
I can't escape the way I love you
I don't want to, but I love you