LLY 2: The One That Got Away

Chapter 28 – Deciphering Destiny?

[David Jon Gonzales’s P.O.V]

“Tell me if you can breathe…Okay your vitals are good…Remember David may mga oras na puwede kang atakihin ng tumor mo. Are you sure you will not confine yourself here?” Sabi ni Dr. Royales saakin habang chinecheck up ako sa isang ospital early in the morning kasi mamayang 2 pm Christmas party na namin.

“I’m not staying” Sabi ko and Dr. Royales just smiled

“You know David for a cancer patient you’re still charming enough, and sa katotohanan hindi obvious sayo na may sakit ka. It’s actually good, lessen the stress and live your life, we never know baka madagdagan pa ang 5 years mo” Sabi ni Dr. Royales

“Can I ask something?” Tanong ko and Dr. Royales nodded

“Anything”

“Kung sakaling may paraan pa para magtagal ako, matatanggal pa po ba yung Tumor sa utak ko?” Tanong ko and naging seryoso naman ang itsura ni Dr. Royales.

Silence.

“Please tell me” Pagmamakaawa ko.

“Ayon naman sa mga naging results ng observations maayos naman yung nagiging process, but…”

“ano po…”

“You’ll die eventually but we’re not sure, either you’ll die or you’ll lose your memories and it’s not a good thing.” Sabi ni Dr. Royales and pakiramdam ko I’m losing hope. Suicide na ba ako?

“Eh Doc, may paraan pa po ba para mawala ang tumor niya sa utak ng hindi mamamatay o mawawalan ng memory?” Nakalimutan kong andito pala si Nathan.

“As for that question, no there’s no other options. Pero losing the memory is the better result than dying. Memory loss is just temporary. Yet other patients do not retrieve their old memories” Naluha ako sa mga narinig ko kay Doc Royales and I decided to stand up and kinamot ko yung  siko ko.

“Um I have to go” Sabi ko at kaagad na lumabas ng Office ni Doc Royales.

“Um sige po Doctor Royales mauuna na rin po ako” Narinig kong sabi ni Nathan at lumabas na rin siya ng Office.

We started to walk along the hall. My tears started to flow at napatigil ako sa paglalakad at napasandal sa pader at napaupo sa sahig and I started to sob and sinabunutan ko yung buhok ko and I uttered her name.

“Naomi”

Everything is so silent pakiramdam ko guguho na ang mundo ko. It was still her I love. I love her. Hope she’d understand me.

“DJ everything will be okay” Sambit ni Nathan

“Sana nga” Sabi ko while wiping the tears and I stood up and Nathan patted my back and we started to walk towards the hospital exit door.

Habang nag-dDrive si Nathan I kept on looking at Naomi’s photo sa phone ko. It was our photo nung nasa tagaytay kami. It was the field trip non.

I swiped the photo and ang next kong nakita ay yung stolen picture namin ni Naomi, It was our first kiss. Ulol kasi si Rico ginamit yung DSLR ni Ashlyn tapos sinned saakin na yun yung remembrance daw.

I tried to smile at the memory.

“Make things easier? Eh parang ikaw ang hirap na hirap mag-move on jan oh” Sambit ni Nathan habang nakatingin siya sa kalsada

“Huh?” nalilito kong tanong

“Anong huh ka diyan? Kita mo nga o sinasabi mo kay Naomi na ayaw mo na siya kasi gusto mo maging hate ka niya at maging madali ang lahat pero ikaw naman tong hirap na hirap. Gulo niyo ah” Sabi niya na parang natatawa. Binatukan ko siya.