THE STORMS WITHIN

Learning to trust the Fate...

She smiled faintly, and continued, as much for him, as much for herself...
- How she felt while she danced in his arms, because she felt as though she were drifting slowly into a sweet reality where she meant something to him
- How she felt when he announced to her that she was to pretend before Fabri that she was his fiancè, his beloved, because nothing scared and excited her more than hearing those words
- How she felt when she came home to find him sitting with his parents at the kitchen table, laughing as if he always belonged there
- How she felt during the dinner with Fabri, when he caressed her shoulder, and told the imaginary story of how they met, referencing her scent
- How she felt when he came around their grocery store and showed her he cared, because she was beginning to realize that she may have meant something to him after all
- How she felt when she realized she was touching his face at the employee camp, and even though her eyes were covered with a bandana, she already knew it was him and her heart felt as if it would jump out of her chest
- How she felt when she stood in the doorway of his home, trying to gather courage to tell him how she felt
- How she felt when she regained consciousness after being pushed when she went to find the person who published the photos that incriminated Can, because she found herself in the safety of his arms
- How she felt when she found him in the forest after he fled from the agency, because even though she was aware that she found him, she was not aware at that time that she was the FIRST and ONLY person who ever found him when he went onto hiding
- How she felt when he held her hand at the employee lounge after his photographer's license was reinstated, because he told her he was a man standing before her, and he was right when he figured out that she had feelings for him
- How she felt when she bluntly lied to him by the embankment by saying that he did not matter to her
- How touched she felt when she saw how much he cared about Aunt Remide
- How she felt when he pulled out her bandana so that she could tie it around his wounded hand at Aunt Remide's abandoned factory, because she wanted to confess how much she already loved him, but she was too afraid of her mistakes
- How helpless she felt saying goodbye to him for what she thought was forever, and how empowered she felt seeing that he offered her not only courage to write with the Divit Feather Pen but also in his words telling her never to give up on her deam
- How crushed she felt after realizing how little she had to offer him when she met Polen
- How she felt when he tended to her needs during their lunch dinner with Levent and Polen, because he saw her and only her
- How she felt when he told her then, at that lunch dinner sitting next to Polen, that he himself felt that it was just them, just the two of them, at that table. ONLY them...

She paused, and looked at Can. She asked if she should keep going, because going down the memory lane probably sounded too boring to him. He only squeezed her hand tighter, and asked her to continue. So she did, with a little more of a calmer heart...
- How she felt when Polen made her leave when they arrived at his mountain house, making it all too clear that he only cared about Polen
- How she felt when he reafirmed her, time and time again that he had not reconciled with Polen after all
- How she felt that day on the beach, when she went into the water to clense the pain and sorrow that filled her heart because she realized that she really was all alone and that he would never look at her the way he looked at Polen
- How she felt the moment he held her in his arms and asked her to stay alone together with him, because she realized that he looked at her in a way he never looked at Polen, ever...
- How she felt on the way to Polen's birthday celebration at his house after Güliz told her Polen would be moving in with him
- How crushed she felt, standing in the grand emptiness of the opera, surrounded only by memories of him, and never again by his arms
- How indescribably shocked she felt when she saw him walk toward her in the loggia booth, wearing the same tuxedo he did the night they met, because she not only realized he chose her over Polen, but she also realized HE was her Albatross. HER Albatross...
- How she felt atop the hills of Istanbul, when they walked through the grounds of his original family home, because he held her close and told her he fell in love with her
- How she felt the moment he told her that she won the most painful war to him because she did not love him, because he was a fool to believe that their kind of love was possible to exist, and he left, because he realized she gave up on his feelings for her
- How she felt when she gathered all the courage in her heart and came to him and told him she, too, loved him very much
- How she felt when he asked her where she would like to travel with him, and she told him they needn't travel anywhere because her one place on earth she ever wanted to be was in his arms, right by the sound of his beating heart
- How she felt the moment she saw the pain in his heart when she revealed the truth of her mistakes
- How she felt when he told her she was just like anyone else during her birthday dinner, when she walked away from him with tears in her eyes and a heart crushed into pieces
- How she felt saying goodbye to him and the agency, because she knew that even though she was walking away from him, she would never be able to escape her feelings for him
- How she felt when he stood in their grocery store, trying his best to mend pieces of her broken heart
- How she felt when he almost kissed her in the elevator and how painful it felt when he pulled back at the last moment, letting her know he could no longer trust her as his beloved
- How she felt when she awoke from a nightmare only to end up in the safety of his embrace
- How she felt when he presented the Amber Heart necklace to her, letting her know that he cared, he still cared.
- How she felt when he found her, deep in the forest, down in the pit, and saved her, in every sense of that word
- How she felt when she kissed him later that day, and even now she could not describe how her lips felt the moment they recognized the taste of his kiss, as if it were the only thing that her life depended on
- How she felt when he fought off Fabri after paying him off, and he told her that her scent belonged to him
- How she felt when she gifted him a scent she created for him, only for him
- How she felt when he showed jealousy with Sinan, and when he intercepted her kiss meant for Sinan
- How she felt the moment he pulled out a book from the top shelf at her mother's community library, and gifted the Galapagos book to her with his inscription in it
- How she felt when he pulled her out of the bathroom window and told her she was his beloved
- How it felt when they spent the evening in his mountain home while they danced among strands of lights, only to end up looking up at the sky and the stars when the power went out
- How she felt when Fabri got him arrested, because she made the mistake that she thought was a saving grace at the moment when she surrendered her scent to Fabri in exchange for his freedom
- How she felt when he proposed to her, because everything in her body was telling her to accept the ring yet her heart knew she first would have to come clean about the reason why Fabri dropped all charges against him
- How she felt when he told her everything ended between them because she freely gave up her scent, HIS SCENT to Fabri, because she couldn't bring herself to tell him that no way under any circumstances did she surrender it freely - because it came at the price of their love...