Omegle

"I didn't want to make him choose between me and Alejandro, but it was the only way I could've been with Mattia. The amount of emptiness I had without Mattia was unbearable. I needed to do something about it."

I would do anything for Mattia because I know he'd do anything for me. I felt something different with Mattia. Different from anything I've ever felt with anyone else. Without Mattia, I felt nothing but heartbroken. I didn't know what to do. It was like I was drowning with no one around to help me. A few weeks went by without Mattia, and I still wasn't recovering.

The next day at school, everything came crashing down. Ava was at Mattia's locker. At first, I didn't think anything of it. I needed to get over him, so maybe him being with Ava was the way that it would happen. But it wasn't. As I'm walking by, she hugs him, then he kisses her. My heart shatters. I couldn't breathe. I ran into the nearest bathroom, just so no one would see me in tears. I lock myself in a stall and start balling my eyes out. I was trying to contain myself, but it didn't work. Life was worthless without him. There was no point of existing without Mattia.

As I'm crying, somebody walks into the bathroom. I immediately quiet down. I didn't want anyone to know I was in here. Then I hear a knock on my stall. It was Ava.

"Hey, Tara. I saw you run in here, is everything alright?" She says. She knew exactly what she was doing. I knew from the moment I met her that she was a threat.

"I'm fine," I say, choking back my tears.

"Listen, I'm back with Mattia. I don't want you to hate me or anything." She responds.

"No, it's fine. I've moved on." I lied. I couldn't tell her I still liked him. It made me look vulnerable, and that's the last thing I wanted. I walked out of the stall, passing her.

"So you aren't mad?"

"No, of course not."

"Then what were you crying about?" She asked, acting concerned even though she wasn't.

"Family issues, nothing to worry about."

"I'm so sorry, wanna talk about it?"

"No, I'm good." I walked out of the bathroom. I didn't know what to do. My head was spinning.

About an hour after school ended, I got a text from Joseph, "yoo, party tn, wanna go?"

I really needed to go to this party, I needed an escape. I was sick of crying. "sure, when?" I responded.

"i'll pick u up at 9, it'll be fun."

I was excited to go to the party, I just needed something to numb the pain, and what's better than getting super drunk and high?

While I'm getting ready for the party, my phone starts to blow up with texts from Alejandro. I rolled my eyes, and put my phone down. I didn't wanna deal with him. Joseph picks me up, and we go to the party. There were tons of cars parked at the sides of the street. Once we found a spot to park, Joseph turns off the car.

"Can we talk for a second?" He says. He sounded nervous.

"Yeah, sure. What's up?" I respond, concerned.

"I really like you. I trust you more than anyone else, and I know you and Mattia just broke up but I needed to tell you." He said in one breath. I didn't know what to say.

"Joseph," I start, "I can't, I'm sorry," I say as I leave the car. I didn't know how to feel. I didn't like Joseph like that. He was my best friend, and I feel like I lost him. I've lost everyone, and he was the only one I had left.

Throughout the night, I couldn't help but constantly think about Joseph. I didn't see him all night. I started to feel sick, so I walk around the house, looking for a bathroom. I accidentally walk into a bathroom to see Mattia and Ava making out.

"Sorry," I say, walking out immediately. For some reason, I didn't feel anything. I didn't feel upset or jealous, just numb. I walk out of the party and start walking down the long street. I take out my phone to check the time and open the texts I received from Alejandro hours before.

As I'm reading the texts, they start to get more and more intense. Tears begin to stream down my face. I knew something bad happened, and I realize that it was all my fault.