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Tom's POV

"I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND!" I shoot the harpoon into Tord's robot and it explodes. I wake up panicked. I hyperventilate while tears silently fall down my face. I put my face in my knees while hugging them crying quietly. I sigh and wipe the tears off my face. I check my phone seeing it was 2 in the morning. I get up and leave my room only wearing a light gray t shirt and boxers but this is my apartment why should I care. I walked into my kitchen opening the fridge and grabbing a bottle of Smirnoff chugging it quickly, I just need something to numb this.. I take the now half empty bottle going over to the couch, I sit down and grab the remote turning the TV on switching through channels.

I decided to just watch the news trying to get the thought of Tord out of my head with the help of alcohol and distracting TV but I soon realized that wasn't the best idea as news of the "Red Leader" came on "DAMN IT TORD JUST GO AWAY!" I said throwing the empty bottle of Smirnoff at the TV possibly breaking it.

I breakdown in tears curling up in a ball on the couch "I'm..so sorry.." I said while sniffing, crying myself to sleep

Next day

I woke up and looked at my phone. "1:00 PM.. I might as well go take a shower." I said to myself then sigh getting up and going to my room i grab some ripped jeans, boxers and another gray tshirt cuz im basic. I went into the bathroom and turned on the shower. I took off my clothes and looked in the mirror seeing my tan freckled face, massive eye bags, greasy brown hair, my hairy and chubby body but times have changed I'm sexy now. Other then the bo from lack of showering, the stench of alcohol, and my lack of eyes. I'd be a perfect fit for a "I can fix him" kind of person. I chuckled at the thought and got into the shower. It's nice in theory but I don't wanna be taken care of. I just wanna know what's wrong with me. I wonder why did he care so much about power.. that betraying his friends was so... Worth it? I know we didn't get along well but I genuinely thought he at least cared about edd and Matt.

I sighed pushing the thought out of my mind as I got washed up. I got out of the shower drying off and putting my clean clothes on. I left the bathroom hearing knocking at the door I went to the door opening it to see Edd and Matt "Uh Edd, Matt what are you guys doing here?" I asked. "To cheer you up!" Edd said with a cheerful smile. I looked at him confused and he sighed "We're going to the arcade." He said. "No thanks I'm good.." I said looking down avoiding "eye" contact Matt and Edd looked at each confused "But Tim I thought you loved the arcade...or maybe that was Todd.."

I immediately slammed the door on their faces at the mention of "him" I go to my room and hide under my blanket getting my phone and watching YouTube as a distraction I heard the door open and I turned around expecting to see Edd but instead I see Tord.. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE TORD" I yelled scared shitless "What are you talking about Tom it's just me Edd..?" I closed my eyes and rubbed the back of them opening them seeing a very worried edd "I-..I thought it was him.." Edd walked over and hugged me tightly "Tom I think you need help.."

I shoved him off "What no I don't? I'm fine!" I kinda yelled at him "Tom you're starting to hallucinate when have you gotten sleep" edd asked concerned. "It varies.." I muttered. Edd sighed and turned the lights on and I fell off my bed not used to the light "Ow.." I said still on the ground just laying there "You need to take care of yourself." Edd helped me up and looked at me with a serious expression, the kind of intense expression you got from him if you took the last cola "Tom you need therapy." He said bluntly "Why do I need therapy?" It was obvious Edd was getting frustrated but I continued to play dumb.

"Do you seriously not see the condition you're in Tom? You don't sleep, you let no one mention To- "him", you're hallucinating, you keep spacing out and your drinking more then usual!"
I looked at him with a blank stare "Yeah, and?" I asked. He got so mad at me he walked out of my room grabbed Matt who was in the living room and left my apartment, I go back to the couch as the front door slammed leaving me alone. Why should I get help.. maybe I just wanna be miserable. I turned the tv on, thankfully it wasn't broken, I mean it had a little crack in the top corner but it was ignorable.

Later that night

A loud glass shattered and I sprung awake on the couch. "The fuck?!" I yelled confused. Was that a hallucination or..? I checked the time on my phone "2:47 Am..at least I didn't have a nightmare about Tord again.." I said talking to myself which is totally normal, I get up and walked around looking for what broke, finding a broken Smirnoff bottle by the fridge "..." I got a knife just in case I needed it and checked the bathroom, finding no one I checked the guest bedroom, finding nothing again I checked my room turning the light on to see Tord wearing an eyepatch with a scarred face and robot arm climbing out of my window

"Ok Tom it's just another hallucination just walk away.. and he will too.." I said to myself walking away trying to keep it together. I heard footsteps behind me seeing Tord following me. I rubbed my eye lids and he was still there. "Ugh! Just disappear already." I said kinda pissed still holding the knife "Classic Stupid Tom thinking I'm a hallucination" he teased. I walked over to him and I poked his face "What the fuck are you doing stop that." Tord slapped my hand away "WHAT THE FUCK YOUR REAL"

Tord scoffed and rolled his eyes "Of course I'm real Thomas" I immediately ran for the door to tell Edd and Tord ran after me and put me in a chokehold covering my mouth "You're not going anywhere Tommy~" I bite the hand covering my mouth which was flesh "OW WHAT THE FUCK!?" I went behind Tord quickly and put the knife against his throat
"shut the fuck up commie." Tord went silent "Why are you here?" Tord didn't respond so I pressed the knife harder against his throat "ANSWER ME!"

Tord started giggling then laughing manically "Kill me." Tord said plainly with a smirk "Do you want to die?" I asked "Do you want me dead?" Tord asked I went silent for a minute then sighed "No I don't want you dead.." I said dropping the knife and letting Tord go "Now can you tell me why you're here?" Tord then put a cloth over my nose and mouth I tried to pull it off but I started feeling sleepy "I came for you Tommy~" was what I heard Tord say before I passed out

To be continued..

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Hey guys Person here I just finished chapter one of "why did this happen" I hope you enjoy in total there was 1012 words including this message down here welp cya

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Hey guys lemon here as it's been like 4 years since I made this and I decided it's time to finally fix it. I did leave some bits that were good enough in my opinion. Funny thing tho is I made this June 4th 2020 and came out as trans 9 days later. I'm 18 now so that's cool.

New word count 1374 thanks for reading