the ladder

"And he was kissing her... In Front of you?" Ross asked for the hundredth time. "Yes, Ross." I cross my arms. "I'll be right back." He rushed out of the room, we all followed but stayed down the hall a little bit.

"Hello?" I heard someone say, it was Joseph. "Hello" Ross said and punched him square in the face. Joseph punched him right back. They were having a fist fight until, Rocky, and Ellington split it up. "I WILL KILL YOU!" Ross yelled. "WHAT DID I DO?" Everyone from the originals cast walked out and I ran back to my room. "What IS GOING ON?" Michael asked. "He- just punched me--" Joseph spat out. Just hearing all this made me even sadder and madder. "Damn right I punched you." Hearing Ross say that made me laugh.

- "what is this about?" Phoebe yelled.

"He kissed your sluty-ass in front of my heartbroken best friend. My heartbroken best friend who cries herself to sleep every single night. My heartbroken best friend that is so depressed you can see it on her skin." At least someone noticed. That's why I love Ross, he notices when something is wrong. I walked out of the room, not looking up.

"Is that true?" Claire asked, me. I nod my head yes and she ran over to me and gave me a hug. "Let's go talk." She said, and we walked to her room. Her and Danielle Campbell shared a room but Danielle is a good friend of mine.

"Since when have you been depressed?" She asked. "Well, it all started when my farther passed away. I thought leaving home was a good idea but I'm starting to miss my friends. And you know, this. It's all too much to handle." I let out a few tears. "Honey, you have Ross, Rocky, Ellington, Rydel, the TVD cast, your friends back home, and the originals cast including Joseph and Phoebe, who love you so much and will always be here for you. No matter what." Danielle made a point. "But, in depression, you may have people who love you and care but you always feel alone. I feel alone!" I wipe tears away from my eyes. "Hey, come here!" They pull me into a big hug. Then we heard a knock on the door.

- "she doesn't want to see you right now."
-"Please, Claire!"
-"no"
-"Please!"
-"Let me ask her."

"Hey, Maia, Joe wants to see you." She said to me. "I much rather get hit by a bus then talk to him right now." I say.

- "hit by a bus? I didn't know she hated me that much." I feel bad now. shit, I'm feeling-- feelings.

- "Joseph, she-"

- "hates me. I got it." he sighed.

"I DONT HATE YOU!" I yell. "But I don't want to see you, or talk to you, I don't even want to be in the same hotel as you. So please, stay away from me." I close the door and shed multiple tears.

The next day I cried, and cried. I was hurting and needed time.

The next day we left New Orleans for the UK.

On the plane I listened to music and wrote songs. Saying goodbye to Claire and Danielle, and the originals cast (excluding Phoebe and Joseph), was sad but I'm coming back soon.

- TWO MONTHS LATER -

Two months have passed and I'm better- I think. I haven't seen or heard from Joseph. It's good for me.

I have talked to everyone from TVD and The Originals and they all miss me.

Claire has visited me a couple of times on this tour, and she's coming to our show tonight in Australia! Oh my god, did I mention I'm R5's opening act!

I sing: Bad Blood, Haunted, Better Than Revenge, and Style, and tonight in singing a new song. I'm trying my hardest to get signed to a record label. I've had a few meetings with Hollywood Records but I don't think they want me. Hm.