Secrets Within Us (Jikook)

The journey back to the lake house was silent but it was not the kind of silence the smaller male could enjoy, it was an unpleasant tense kind of silence which put the boy on edge. The monster was looking at the road but there was this unfamiliar emotion lingering within his eyes and this particular look made Jimin feel nauseous.

"Kookie are you-" The younger was cut of in a rather abrupt manner as the man glanced in his direction with darkened and daring orbs.

"What did Jin say? Did he say anything important?" The man questioned, his voice resonating agression.

"Er...he was just saying that I shouldn't be doing any heavy lifting, that I should try and eat more cause now I'm eating for two and he also, said that I shouldn't be moving around too much because my tirdeness can effect the baby." Jimin mumnled. He actually wasn't sure if anything he just said was true but he had hoped it was enough babble to convince the other man.

"Namjoon said we can still have sex. He said it wouldn't harm the baby as long as I don't go to hard."

Jimin was sure that Jeon Jungkook was pretty much incapable of going anything other than hard, they had indulged in sexual pleasure many times and the boy could not remember one single time when the other man didn't go hard. Obviously, on any normal occasion rough sex would be something that the boy would willingly partake in, as long as he was not pushed further than his limits but currently and in his current state Jimin didn't want to jeopardise the health of his little bump and if that meant going up against the monster that is what he would do.

"I-i don't...you always go hard Kook."

And Jungkook knew that was the truth. He, himself was unsure of his ability to remain in control with such intimate things, he wasnt confident in his ability to not harm the boy by going far too hard. He always cared for the boy and always made a conscious decision to never go beyond the boys limits but things were much different now, it was not only his precious little mochi that was in danger of becoming harmed...there was now a baby, his baby and there was no way he could jeopardise that babys health.

"I-i know that...I know that I'm not good at controlling myself and I know you're afraid...but I won't harm you. I won't harm our baby." Mr Jeon whispered, and something in Jimin told him this was the truth.

"I believe you." The silver haired beauty paused taking a deep breath. "What did- what did Namjoon say?"

Jungkook glanced at the boy, both men were slightly shocked that the younger had dared to ask such a question. If it was any other moment Jimin would have never dared to ask and he surprised himself by asking but this was something he genuinely wanted to know. The older male sighed, clenching his fists around the blackened leather of the steering wheel. Glancing at the boy, Mr Jeon contemplated not saying anything, but he thought that the boy might ask again later so maybe it was better to just say it now.

"He wanted to know whether my intentions with you were genuine." The man stated, glancing over at the now tense figure.

Jimin stared out of the car window, not really knowing how to respond. He had a pretty good idea why Namjoon would have asked such an invasive question. Clearly, the man wanted to gage whether the boy was in deed being held against his will and maybe the man wanted to know how badly the other male would be affected if Jimin was to suddenly disappear. The boy knew why Namjoon was asking but he wasn't sure whether the monster had caught on, he hoped not.

"Maybe he just wanted to make sure you're ready for what's about to come. I've never seen you with a child and I'm sure he hasn't either." Jimin concluded and relieved a small nod from the other man.

A small sigh escaped the older man's lips and he abruptly stopped the car pulling over on the side of the dirt road. Turning towards the smaller male, Jungkook reached out to caress the others paled face, his eyes held no visible emotion and there were stray tears falling from the mans eyes. Jimin had never seen this monster shed a tear not before today, now seeing the man cry twice was an unfamiliar sight and it was an unwelcome feeling of guilt that pulsed through the boys body.

"Jimin....Minnie...I know you think I don't care and I gave exactly treated you the nicest but I -...I really do want this...I really need this and I just need you to know that I care about you a lot."

The guilt was starting to eat away at the other  male. The devil was finally showing some raw emotion and thatvwas something the silver haired man valued, he embraced this confession with open arms and allowed him to look into the other man's eyes with complete honesty. The boy felt guilty but not for wanting to leave, he felt guilty for letting this man show such pure emotion, accepting such raw feelings knowing that throughout everything he still had to leave. The monster was opening up his heart but that still did not alter the younger boys decision, this man was unpredictable and a loose cannon and there wasn't any way the boy could allow this man to taint their child. In fact, this sudden burst of emotion only made the male want to leave all the more.

"I'm sorry Minnie. I really am." The man was now sobbing.

"I know you are...you're always sorry when its already too late." The words came out as a whisper but Jimin was sure the man had heard his words and he was sure this man knew the words he spoke were the truth. And it was the truth.

His apology was about three years too late.

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