Behind the Scenes

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Second Chances

PART 6

"I'm so sorry..." Came an almost inaudible whisper, Arthit's voice cracking with the onslaught of hot tears flowing down his flushed cheeks as he stepped out of the elevator.

Kongpob raised his head and allowed Arthit to see the silent plea on his face — don't leave — before the elevator doors closed again and he was left alone.

Arthit took a panicking step forward, his fingertips reaching the cold metal just when the doors closed again, until he fell down on his knees with a choked cry, tears of regret sliding down his cheeks in a never-ending waterfall.

Forgive me, Kongpob.

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It was only a few days later, when Kongpob found out that the same night Arthit had left him alone in the elevator — feeling absolutely rejected — Arthit had actually rushed to meet Jason and his new co-actor — Ohm Ritprasert — for their upcoming adult movie to which they had signed the contract earlier that very week and were about to film the first sex scene that same night.

After having sex with me, he left me to go get fucked by another man.

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Slut.

It wasn't only because of his quickly developed feelings and high hopes for Arthit that made Kongpob feel so angry and disappointed, but it was more the fact that the time he had held the raven's body close to his, Arthit had desperately been clinging to his body, while their dark chocolate brown eyes were locked in a strong passionate gaze — and it all had seemed to mean so much more than just horny sex that could be forgotten the next day.

Well, at least for Kongpob it had meant something more. 

For Arthit, the rising adult movie star, it seemed to be nothing more than another source of stress relief.

God damnit, Kongpob. What mess did you get yourself in?

Kongpob knew he had been way too gullible, too naive to think that Arthit would actually admit to having steamy sex in the elevator with him and maybe, discuss things further?  Of course he wouldn't... he will just pretend that it never happened, right? Like all the times he's being fucked by someone... it never happened...

But Kongpob still couldn't stop a small part of his heart from hoping that it wouldn't be their last time together and maybe...just maybe, he could one day be good enough for the raven to accept him.

Just the way he was – a used nobody.

Kongpob had never gotten the chance to learn what Arthit was thinking of him and he was too confused and angry by the man's cold rejection that a week later, when he was called in to play an extra in a steamy shower sex scene with Ohm and Arthit, he had brought along his contract and ripped it into pieces in front of Jason's horrified, Ohm's confused and Arthit's shocked faces, thanked them politely for their hospitality, wished them all a bright future and left the room without even glancing at Arthit.

Jason was more mortified with his decision than Kongpob had expected him to be — apparently the taller man had already proudly boasted to his rivals in the adult entertainment industry that he had finally gotten his hands on the cock that would put shame on all other male actors — and for a second Kongpob actually believed that the "Ice Man" wouldn't let him go without a fight.