I'M HERE ;; yeongyu ?

It has been two weeks since Yeonjun had visited the younger's grave.

He hasn't been doing well at all, his house was a mess; ceramic plates shattered around the kitchen floor; empty beer bottles sprawled on the living room; clothes hanging everywhere in his room; and the gardening dome all messy and moldy.

To a well organized mind, it would seem like a whole hurricane had passed by. But to Yeonjun, this was perfectly normal.

Beomgyu's memories was still very fresh form his mind, as if it had all just happened yesterday.

For the past three years, he couldn't admit that the younger had passed away. So he keeps on having hallucinations on what could've happened if he had saved Beomgyu on time.

He made his hallucinations his alternatives to be able to cope with the present pain.

But he couldn't hold on to those thoughts any longer as well. He had to move on, just like what he should've done three years ago.

He just couldn't bare the truth of Beomgyu's death. That the person he loves the most in the entire world had died because of him; because of his clumsiness and lack of constant vigilance.

None the less, he was a bit happy now that Beomgyu won't be experiencing his family's torture anymore.

And speaking of his parents, Yeonjun had already reported the both of them to the police. Arrested under the 'Special Protection of Children against Abuse, Exploitation and Discrimination Act.' But both had died in the fire as well.

No one could survive a full-blown inferno.

With all those horrible thoughts behind him, Yeonjun changed into his evening robes, he isn't planning to go to sleep yet; he still wants to visit his love.

So he closed the gate to his house and set off.

He stepped on the damp grass as he inhaled the muddy scent of the cemetery grounds. His feet leading his way towards Beomgyu's grave. He kneled down in front of the tombstone.

"Hey Gyu, how are you doing?..."

"You know, I haven't heard your voice for years, but my heart has conversations with you everyday.."

"Gyu, for the first time in forever, I never realized how much a person means to me...until they become a memory.."

"Why Gyu...why is it so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember?..."

Yeonjun started crying while caressing Beomgyu's name.

"All your memories came back to me, every detail of it... But you never do.."

"If love can truly save a person, then you wouldn't have died.."

"I promise you Gyu, that no one can ever replace you in my heart.."

"I love you, forever and always.."

"This isn't goodbye, this isn't the end. It just means that I will miss you...until we meet again..."

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