MOIRA | WHY DON'T WE X AVENGERS AU

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The dinner party teetered out after that. There was little discussion, and Daniel thought it was best for me to take the day off tomorrow from school. Get to know each other a bit more since now there was apparently an entire world of things he needed to learn about his daughter. 

I think he felt guilty somehow.

Like it's his fault I was born into a world where I couldn't just be.

I'm not too sure if I feel sorry exactly. I mean, I don't want him to be sad or anything, but it's almost embarrassing in a way. All of a sudden, just because I'm trans, he finds out there's more to me. Like the words on the official documents could all of a sudden by lying. 

And then the other bit he says 'some father daughter time, if you will.'

He is not my father. 

And I am not just my gender. 

Now all of a sudden, they felt sheepish about my room. The star wars posters (Corbyn's influence apparently), the huge lego set, the navy blue bed sheets, and every other symbol of masculinity that they cower behind now. 

I still like star wars. I still like legos. I still like the navy blue bed sheets. I just don't like the dick attached to my body, but hey! If it's attached to someone attractive, I'm all down. 

"So. Artemis, huh?" 

I didn't notice Jonah at the door. 

Jonah isn't all that bad, actually. Something about him. Maybe the way he switched from my deadname to Artemis so quickly and accepted it without a second thought. He didn't change the way he talked to me, or even seem somewhat sheepish about the bedroom they decorated before even asking what I liked. 

"Yeah," I answer shortly. Not to be bitter to him or anything, but there's not much else to say. 

"I don't care if you don't like Star Wars by the way, you will be getting into it. I think everyone should appreciate the fine art." Jonah adds, and then he tugs at one of posters stuck on the wall. "I did fucking tell them we should wait and see if you preferred anything, but no... all of a sudden they're experts on adolescence."

That gave a snort outta me. The entire thing was so bizarre, but I could find some peace in the strange, and enough so that it was starting to become humorous. 

"How about..." Jonah trails off. "We watch star wars tomorrow. Like a marathon, since you don't have school or anything, and then we can hit the mall. You can ditch any clothes that's giving you dysphoria, and we get you some new shit. Deal?"

I let myself smile. Just a little, because this guy seemed like he was actually trying. I nodded, shaking his hand. "The deal is the deal."