How I Became Mrs. Jeon?

I was sitting between Jimin and Taehyung who were talking about something, cheerfully. They both laughed and tried to high five but I was between them so they couldn't. I looked up to Jimin and just smiled politely. Jungkook was talking and boys were just listening to him and smiling at him.He was pouting so Yoongi ruffled his hair and he just pushed his hand away and started whining. The boys told him he acts like a baby and started teasing him.They all look so close. They look as if they belong to each other. I feel like I don't belong here. I didn't have much friends growing up. So when I see a group of friends I feel envious. I had one friend but then I lost contact with him. I know a lot of people but I don't have friends. I am a cheerful person and I am really social. People think extroverts have alot of friends but that's not true. I talk to alot of people. I laugh with them, play with them, hang out with them. But when I am alone , I don't have one person I can call. I don't have best friend. These guys are so close and they are so nice. They make me feel included and they are polite to me but they are not my best friends. They are just some guys I know. I am not a part of their group. The seven of them are friends and I am just someone they all know. And I feel like I am an uninvited guest. I mean they all had a plan to hang out together and I just came without invitation. Well Namjoon did invite me but I think he was just being polite. I feel like I don't fit in the puzzle and seven of them fit perfectly
"Ji Ah. Why aren't you eating?" Seokjin asked, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Hmmm." I said sitting straight in my chair "I am eating."
He nodded with a smile.
"So what are we gonna do after dinner?" He asked taking a bite.
"Movie?" Taehyung suggested.
"Naah. I don't feel like watching a movie" Namjoon interjected.
"Yeah me too" Seokjin added.
"What about we just sit together. Beer in hand and talk. Like old times" hoseok suggested.
"I like the idea" Yoongi said getting up from table and putting his plate in sink.
"It's been a long time since we all got drunk together" Namjoon commented.
"Remember last time we got drunk Taehyung and Jimin had a fight" jungkook interjected and taehyung glared at him.
"Yeah it was hilarious" Hoseok laughed hysterically. "They were drunk and started fighting for the last slice of pizza"
"And then it got out of hand and Jimin punched taehyung." Jungkook added.
"Yeah I remember that" Jimin said chuckling.
"Ji Ah. Do You know what happened after that?" Seokjin asked me.
"Can we not talk about that?"Taehyung said sulking in his chair and they all just laughed.
"What happened?" I asked Jimin.
"He cried." He said and another laughed erupted from table.
"NOOOOO!!!!!" I exclaimed laughing.
"Yes." Namjoon said trying to hold his laugh "He was crying like 'Jimin punched me. He punched me. I won't talk to him. He punched me'. He was sulking like a 5 y/o baby. "Namjoon said mimicking taehyung and I laughed. I can imagine taehyung speaking like a little boy.
"He acts like a baby when he's drunk" Seokjin added and recieved a glare from taehyung.
"Well talking like a baby is better than taking off clothes" Jungkook commented and everyone laughed.
Well another inside joke I don't know about. This is what I meant when I said that I think I don't fit in. Argh....
I hate this feeling
"What are you thinking Ji Ah.?" Jimin asked .
"Nothing." I said as I got up from table and started walking toward sink.
"I will wash the dishes" I said putting my plate in sink.
"No you won't" Namjoon said as he walked toward sink.
"I didn't help in cooking so I will wash dishes" I said grabbing the dish soap.
Yoongi snatched the soap from my hand and spoke "Taehyung and Jimin will do dishes as they didn't help in cooking" he walked out of kitchen and into living room.
"Jungkook and I will clean the table and bring out snacks and beer while you sit in living room" Namjoon said as he came behind me and started pushing me toward living room.
"But this is only for today. Next time you will have to help us" Seokjin said as he came upto me.
"Ok" I smiled politely and walked into living room where yoongi was sitting on a chair.I sat on sofa and started using my phone.
"You alright.?" I heard him speak.
"Yeah. I am good" I replied as I looked up at him. He got up and and took a seat beside me.
"Why are you so quite today?" He asked, his eyes filled with concern.
"I am not" I said and fixed my eyes on my hands.
"You know you can talk to me if something is bothering you, right.?" He asked and I just nodded without looking at him. My gaze was glued to my hands.
"And you know where to find me right.?" He asked again and I nodded again.
"You know I am just one call away right.?" He asked once again and I nodded again. I kept nodding because I knew If I tried to speak I will break down. I will start crying. I cry easily. So I just kept nodding and didn't meet his eyes.
"Will you stop nodding and look at me please.?" He asked a bit louder. Well not loud enough for other to hear but loud enough to show that he is angry.
I got up and walked out of living room.
I called seokjin as I walked up to him.
"Ehmmm. Well I wanna say thank you for inviting me and thanks for everything but I have to go back home" I said everything really fast.
"Why? The night is not over yet. We ar-"
"I have headache and I wanna rest" I cut him off.
"It's late. I can't let you go alone. It's dark outside" he replied.
"What's the matter?" Yoongi said as he approached us.
"She says she has a headache and she wanna go home but I suggest she stays over as it's late" Seokjin informed him.
"You have a headache?" Yoongi asked me and I nodded. God. What is wrong with me. I was just fine talking with seokjin but why am I on verge of tears around yoongi.
"Hyung I will use your room for a moment.I need privacy" Instead of replying me he informed Seokjin as he grabbed my hand and pulled me into a room.
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"What's wrong Ji Ah?" I asked her as I sat beside her on Seokjin's bed.
She didn't reply.
"Please talk to me" I said again. But she kept quite. I turned her toward me spoke "Ji Ah I know something is bothering you and I know it has something to do with me. So please talk to me" I said as I took her hand in my hand and squeezed it.
She didn't speak but I heard a sniff. She was crying. "Why are you crying?" I asked her as I wiped her tears.
"Because I am dumb and stupid" she replied sarcastically.
"You are not. You are sweet and beautiful. You are an amazing person who brings joy to people around her. You are so precious Ji Ah" I said as I pulled her into a hug.
She snuggled her face in my chest and she grabbed my shirt in her fist and started crying loudly.
I let her cry. I patted the back of her head with my hand. If she wants to cry I will let her cry. Crying in front of someone and being vulnerable isn't easy. I will be by her side when she is weak. I will provide shoulder when she cries. I will make her smile when she is sad. I feel so attached to her. It's weird. I feel connected to her. I feel like I have known her for ever. I feel like we were meant to meet each other. But not in a romantic way. What I feel for her isn't romantic but it's special. I felt her fist letting go of my shirt and she moved away from me. She stopped cring.
She looked up to me and smiled. I smiled back.
"So wanna talk now.?" I asked her as I got up to get some tissues for her.
"You will think I am weird" she said as she rubbed her hands together.
"Try me" I said giving her tissues.
She wiped tears from her face and said "Have you ever felt that you don't belong somewhere.?"
I sat beside her and she turned toward me. "Yeah. I have." I replied
"That's what I feel with you guys." She said looking at me. I didn't reply. She looked at my intently looking for some answers.
"Continue speaking" I said in a low voice and I took her hand in my hand.
"When I was kid I got into an accident. I was in coma for two years. Doctors said I might never wake up. But miracle happened and I woke up. I got healthy after a year or two. I lost 3 to 4 years of my life in that accident so I was trying to make up for it by hanging around with people.I was a cheerful child. I loved talking to people. Everyone adored me. From teachers to kids to people in my neighbourhood. I was intelligent so every student wanted me to be his/her partner. I always had a group of friends around me for past 11 years. I have a large social circle but I feel like I don't have friends." She stopped and looked at me. I smiled at her, encouraging her to continue.
"I have always wanted a group a friends I can call my bestfriends. I wanted a person I can call my soulmate. Who understands me. Stays with me. I never had those. I have alot of people around me. I know alot of people and all of them are nice but I don't feel connected with them. I don't have a person I can call my bestfriend. I had a group of friends in high school but I never fitted in. They all were nice to me but I always felt left out and unwelcomed. I want to be around people who actually like me. I want a group of friends whom I can connect with. Who will be with me through thick and thin." She stopped and wiped a tear.
"When I met you guys I instantly liked all of you. I fight with Jungkook but I like him too. Alot actually" she chucked "you all seem so close. It looks like you all connect with each other on a spirtual level. It's very rare to find that these days. You guys were everything I wanted. I felt a connection with you guys. I Don't know how to explain that but I just feel so comfortable around you guys. And you all make me feel included and welcomed. Like in jeju-do you all invited me to hang out with you guys. Even today namjoon invited me to hangout with you guys. You all are nice and I love spending time with you guys. But when I am with you guys I feel left out. I feel like I am intruding your circle. I am trying to fit in a puzzle where I don't fit. I hate this feeling. I just want a place where I feel that 'yess. This is where I belong" when I am with you guys I feel like that but then I feel like I don't belong here. If it wasn't for this wedding thing I wouldn't be here with you guys." She stopped and a tear rolled down her face
"Look at me" I said to her and she looked up. I held her face in hands and spoke " You belong here. YOU BELONG WITH ME. You said you feel a connection with us. That's what I feel with you. I feel like meeting you was destined. I don't even believe in destiny. Yet I somehow feel like you are supposed to stay with me." She then hugged me. I hugged her back and continued to speak "We all like you Ji Ah. We meet alot of people everyday but we don't invite them in our circle. Taehyung has two bestfriends beside us but he don't invite them to hang out with us. Our little circle of seven guys is something we all adore. We never let anyone enter it. But we let you in. It has nothing to do with your marriage with Jungkook. We let you penetrate our little circle before this wedding talk. So don't feel like we are doing this for Jungkook. Namjoon has a gf but you will rarely see her with us. She is welcomed but Namjoon never invite us to our gatherings but Namjoon invited tou to our gathering what does that tell you?" I asked her and I moved her away from me so I can look into her eyes.
"That you guys .... like me?" She said raising her eyebrow.
"No. We like Namjoon's girlfriend too but we don't invite her into our gatherings. It means you are one of us now. And it's not just me. We all feel that way. When we came back from Jeju we all discussed how it feel like you are one of us. How we feel comfortable with you. All the guys think that now you are one of us. " I said, smiling at her.
"Then why did you ignore me in the kitchen" she said while pouting.
"I didn't ignore you Ji Ah. I was just tired and I am not much of a chatter. I didn't talk to boys either. I am moody. Sometimes I am goofy sometimes I am quite. That time my quiet-mood was on" I tried to explain to her.
"But you were nice to Jungkook. You ruffled his hair and smiled at him" She said crossing her arms over her chest.
"Awww. Are you jealous of Jungkook?" I said teasing her. "You are jealous of your husband" I said chuckling and she hit my chest. I started laughing. She glared at me for a second and then she joined me. We both were laughing when Jimin popped his head in door frame.
"Everyone is waiting for you two" JIMIN said.
"We are coming" I replied as I got up from bed.
"Hey Ji Ah. What happened your face?" Jimin asked Ji Ah.
And Ji Ah gave him a confused look. Jimin looked at me andwe  made an eye contact and both started laughing cause Ji Ah looked hilarious. Her makeup was smudged. Her hair was a mess. Her eyes were red and she looked so funny. She looked in the mirror and gasped. It made me chuckle. She glared at me and then ran toward the bathroom.
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Waow. That was a long chapter. Like a really long chapter.
Btw. Did yu guy listened to "your eyes tell" OMG it's such a nice song. It so good. The lyrics. The music. The vocals. The rap. It's so good. Our JUNGKOOK PD did a really good job.