He's Changed {being edited}

Harrys P.O.V.

It gets late and we still cant see Louis, the rest of the boys have gone home and Mark promised to call them if anything happened, Liam decided to ring management to tell them we cant attend the meeting tomorrow as Louis is in hospital, he didnt really give any details. Just before Niall left, he handed us Louis phone, him knowing that I knew the password for it but I'm still not brave enough to read the note. Mark and Lottie have both read it, I could see Mark trying to stay strong for Lots but I know he found it really hard. It got to 3am and Mark had to go home to see the others so he left me with Lottie, as we waited Lottie fell asleep on my shoulder, shes basically my little sister and I cant even begin to know how she feels especially after losing so many people shes loved in the past few years.

"Is there someone here for Louis Tomlinson?" A nurse calls out and I jump out of my seat making Lottie wake up "What Harry?" She mumbles wiping her eyes, I didnt answer but walked over to the nurse "Is he okay? Can I see him now?" I ask quickly and now Lottie is stood next to me the nurse sighs and I can feel my heart sink and a tear fall from my eyes "He will be alright, Louis still hasn't woken up as he lost a large amount of blood but yes you can see him." The nurse says and a smile falls onto my face, just knowing that hell be okay puts my mind at ease. As me and Lottie are walking to his room, Lottie grabs onto my hands, "Its okay Lots, hes going to be okay." I say trying to calm her nerves down, as we entre the room my heart sinks to the ground.

My lovely boy lying in a hospital bed with black bags under his closed eyes, wiring coming out of him and thick layers of bandage on both arms "My baby." I whimper out and run to him and kiss his forehead. Lottie follows me in and drags a chair to the side of his bed, I do the same on the other side. Silence takes over the room neither of us wanting to speak about anything both hoping Louis will wake up soon. "Harry, you should read it." Lottie croaks out her voice sore form crying, I sigh and nod my head yes knowing that I should read it before he wakes up. I open his phone and smile at his lock screen, its us two on his birthday back in 2013 were both smiling from ear to ear. I open notes in his phone and I can feel a lump grow in my throat, I take a deep breath and start to read. 'To everyone I love, Im sorry.' Before I get any further, I can feel tears drip down my cheeks, knowing that he didnt think he would survive this, 'I cant spend another 5 years with Simon.' Reading that makes me look up to Lottie in shock but Louis contract was ending in like 2 months. Why has he got to spend another 5 years with him bossing him around, making him unhappy? I carry on reading anger and sadness over whelming me. I read across the note continuing to cry but my breath stops when I read my name 'to my beautiful Harry.' I choke out a sob and Lottie comes beside me and hugs me from the side, I finish reading the note and sit on the side of the bed and hold both of Lous hands in mine. I'm still crying but I manage to sob out "Lou I dont know whether I can hear me but I want you to know. You havent disappointed me on bit, youve held on for so long, I know you signed that deal to make sure I was happy and Simon wouldnt hold me back either and I cant thank you enough. I love you so much and I cant even begin to think of a life without you baby. My baby Lou, the 18-year-old boy that caught the eyes of my 16-year-old self. I wouldnt be able to live without your smile or your laugh or your kissing or just everything and anything about you. I love you so much baby, please wake up soon." I pour my heart out not caring that Lottie is also in the room, hoping that Louis heard every single word, hoping he knows how special he is to everyone.

I feel Louis fingers twitch against my hands and I stare at him "Lou baby. Wake up please I need you." I whisper, Lottie has gone to sit round the other side of the bed "Louis please wake up. I need my big brother." Lottie says also staring at Lou, waiting for him to wake up.

Louis P.O.V.

"Lou, I dont know whether I can hear me but I want you to know. You havent disappointed me on bit, youve held on for so long, I know you signed that deal to make sure I was happy and Simon wouldn't hold me back either and I cant thank you enough. I love you so much and I cant even begin to think of a life without you baby. My baby Lou, the 18-year-old boy that caught the eyes of my 16-year-old self. I wouldnt be able to live without your smile or your laugh or your kissing or just everything and anything about you. I love you so much baby, please wake up soon." I can hear Harry but I dont know how I can, Im meant to be dead or maybe it was a dream. My eyes are too heavy to open but I need to see my Haz, I try to move my fingers but it only moves as a twitch, I can hear shuffling in the room and I try to wake up but my eye lids are so heavy that I cant until I hear Lottie "Louis please wake up. I need my big brother." I feel my heart grow heavy after hearing Lottie; I cant believe I did this too her. "Lots" I croak out, fluttering my eyes open letting them get used to the light in the room. "Oh my God, Louis your okay." I feel my bed press down and feel something heavy by me, I turn my head and open my eyes again, I see Lottie staring at me with tears streaming down her face whilst squeezing my hand "Lottie Im sorry." I mumble out knowing I made her feel this hurt "Shut up Louis, dont say sorry. Its fine because your fine." She pulls me into a hug being careful of my arms that sting like made. "I love you Louis." Lottie whispers into my ear and I rub her back "I love you too Lots." The hug lasts for minuets and never becomes awkward.

"Lou." I hear someone sob from the other side of the room, I break out of the hug and look to that side of the room. I see Harry stood there with red puffy eyes, tear stains on his cheeks and new tears make fresh stains. His hair is scruffy and hes wearing the clothes that he wore last time I saw him. "Haz." I say in a pathetically weak voice, he slowly walks towards me. I dont know whether hes angry or disappointed with me, "Haz, Im so..." Before I can finish, his lips are pressed on mine, the feeling never gets old and knowing he isnt angry with me makes the kiss better. We break away from each other and just hug "I'm going to ring the others." Lottie says and walks out of the room with her phone in her hand. Harry pulls away from the hug and cups my face with both of his hands "Louis William Tomlinson. I love you so fucking much not even words can describe. You will never disappoint me, never. I fell in love with you when I was 16 years old and I have never stopped loving you, never. Dont ever leave me again okay baby, I cant live without you. I thought I would never see your face again, never see your smile again, never be able to kiss you again, never be able to hear you laugh again, never be able to hear you sing again, never get to see you playing football again. The list goes on Louis. Promise me, youll never try to leave me again baby. Please promise me." Harry sobs out and I sit there stunned, I never knew I meant so much to him. All I can manage to do is pull him into a hug so tight I think I might squash him. "Im so so sorry Harry, I promise I will never leave you unless you want me to leave, I love you more than anything and everything." I mumble against his face and I can feel him shaking his head "I will never want you to leave Lou never. I love you too, forever and always baby." I smile against his shoulder "Forever and always Haz." I whisper back to him; Lottie walks back in and we wait for the other to arrive, we talk about anything other than what happened. I know I will have to talk at some point but now Im happy about not being bombarded with questions. Trying not to break the atmosphere I turn to Lottie "Lottie what did you guys say to the other younger ones?" I ask wondering what they said Lottie sighs and rubs her face "We thought it best we said that you feel and hurt yourself really badly, when theyre older they can be told because they wont understand and just get really upset if we told them the truth now." Lottie says with a sad smile on her face, I nod my head "Thank you" I whisper and she climbs onto my bed to hug me "Im sorry Lottie, I shouldnt have done something like this, it was so selfish of me." I say and she shakes her head "No Lou, it wasnt selfish. Nobody knows what kind of pain you were going through. I understand and with that Simon thing dont worry well sort it out. I promise." I smile and nod but my eyes go to the door as I see it open and all the other boys are stood there all looking like they've being dragged through a bush.

"You guys look awful." I chuckle as I look at them all walking into the room "Shut up Tommo, you look worse than this on your good days." Niall smirks back and I pout and look at Harry. Harry grabs on his heart and leap onto my bed "Don't say that about my baby, he looks amazing every day. Even on his bad days." He kisses my lips; I smile into the kiss. I can the boys making gagging noise and Liam moaning "Get a room." I flip him off and as soon as Harry pulls away Zayn leaps onto me "Fuck Lou, you scared me bro." I hear him whisper and hug me tighter "Im sorry." I whisper back, we stay hugging until its Niall turn and then Liams.

A nurse walks into the room and our laughter dies down Louis, "Im sorry but we need to ask some questions about why and how this all happened. They can stay or they can leave." She says and I nod my head, everyone gets up and I panic "No, dont go. I dont want you to go. I want them to stay." All the lads and Lottie smile at me as they sit back down, I look around the room before the nurse asks questions, looking at Liam and Zayn sat together cuddling, Niall and Lottie acting like a brother and sister duo and Harry curled up next to me. I cant believe I nearly lost all of this.