You're my Home || Destiel

"Dean, can i ask you something ?" says Cas without looking at Dean.

"Isn't that what we've been doing for the past hour ?" Dean smirks and continues
"Just kidding buddy. Ask away."

Cas smiles softly with a sigh because this was the kind of thing that makes him fall for Dean, even more, every single time.
"Have you ever been in my place ?
Loved someone like this ?
Except that woman--
I'm sorry, i forgot her name.
Linda ?" he says.

"Lisa"
Dean corrects Cas with a little sassy tone and continues
"Actually. To be totally honest, i don't think i was in love with Lisa."

"You weren't ?
But you--
You were--"
Cas says while tilting his head with his confused look on his face.

"I know. I know. I gave up hunting and started a family, well, i didn't start anything actually, i joined her family.
But--
I mean--
I don't know--" Dean hesitates.

"You have loved someone else more ?" Cas asks.

Dean's pupils dilate as he looks Cas in the eyes. He says "Yes. I have loved somebody else more.
There was this guy."

"A guy ?" asked Cas, as curious as an adorable puppy.

Dean blushes a bit, looks away and continues
"Yeah. I met him a few years ago. Tiny, adorable, gentle but grumpy, intimidating, a little serious.
He wasn't from around here."

"Not from here ... ?
You mean Kansas ?" Cas asks.

Dean continues
"Yeah...
Kansas..
He was actually from another town.
There was something about him--
Something i had never seen before and i don't think i ever will.
It was like--
Like, i was drawn to him.
And hell, i couldn't even resist.
It was something very weird.
Like-
Like i wanted to be with him.
I could spend my life with him."

Cas tries to stare deep into Dean's eyes which were focused on the table as he asks
"Where is he now ?
Does he know ?
Did you ever tell him ?"

"Did i ever tell him ?" Dean repeats with a sad tone while banging his hand on the table.
"No...
I did not...
And you know what ?
I regret it every single day.
Thinking about--
Thinking about what could have been--
How i could have been spending my days with him.
Only if i could tell him." he looks up and sees Cas's ocean blue eyes and gets quite for a while.
He feels like this is the moment, he can do it, he should do it.
But suddenly he realizes, Cas is in love with someone else.
"That's why I'm telling you buddy, you should do it. So you don't regret it."

"Dean...
That sounds--
That sounds very painfull.
I'm sorry i asked" he says and lowers his head.

"No. No. It's okay. I'm over that part of my life.
Now all that matters to me is you, Sammy and Jack." Dean replies with an assuring and cheerful tone.

"You know there was someone else I've been in love too ?" Dean says while smirking.

"Really ? Just to be clear, how many times have you been in love, Dean ?" Cas says and narrows his eyes.

"A lot of times. You wanna know the name ? It's Cassie." Dean says and starts smoldering.

"Cassie ?" Cas asks with confusion.

"Yeah. It's short for Castiel." Dean says and winks.

"I-
Uh-
I don't-
I don't understand, Dean.
You're-
You're in love with me ?" Cas says and gets flustered but he tries not to show it with his cheeks as red as tomatoes.

"I was kidding.
I forgot you were not made for understanding jokes.
I was just messin' with you, Cas.
Actually, Cassie was a girl i was together with before i joined dad in hunting."
Dean says.

"Oh.
Humor.
Funny.
It was very funny, Dean" Cas replies with a sad tone.

"Give it a rest, smarty pants.
I know you didn't get it.
But why did you started blushing ?" asks Dean trying to mess with Cas.

"Actually-
Dean--
I have to--
There's something else i need to tell you" Cas says, hesitating.
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To be continued ❤️