Please, Catch Me (frerard)

Rays pov
Id been to mikeys a lot recently. His older brother gerard is quite confusing but mikey seems to understand him. They have let me join their band which is super cool and im so hyped about it. Gerard doesnt speak and yet they all know everything about him, its quite confusing.

I try not to get involved into their lives to much, but mikey is my damn boyfriend. Not that anyone knows that. We decided to keep it a secret because im not really public about my sexuality and neither is he. Our relationship is quite weird, we dont have sex or hug up to each other the way frank and gerard do, but i guess thats because we can talk to each other. Maybe that was rude, i didnt mean for it to be.

Currently we are all at school, sitting around a little round lunch table. Mikey is eating an apple while i eat kiwi, frank is eating pasta and gerard is drinking his smoothie. I swear that kid is obsessed with smoothies. Mikey gets worried about gerard a lot, says he doesnt eat at all, it honestly makes me a little worried too.

Personally, ive never really understood the whole not talking, not eating, not getting out thing. I guess thats because i dont really have any issues in my mind. I suffer from a bit of social anxiety but other than that, im just an average dude. Perhaps the reason i dont struggle with many issues is because my life is completely basic. Knowing mikey has mental problems is so hard because there isnt much i can do to help him. He screams at night and all i can do is hug him and he cries and shit and i have no clue how to react. I think he is suffering from ptsd and generalized anixety. Maybe i should tell him to see a therapist.

Generally im not an awkward person but seeing gerard look at mikey, frank and i talk like hes so damn sad that we can do it makes me sort of feel weird. Almost like i want to tell him to just talk, but i know thats not how it works.

Maybe he will talk soon.

Hehe my first chapter from rays pov, sorta short cuz idrk what to put. Im really tryna include him more cuz i love him deeply and he isnt recognized enough. Enjoy folks